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Feeling blue – go for blue, pink or red 😊

Whenever I feel sad I always change clothes – putting on something blue, pink or red always brings me relief.

  • Do you have a special color or a special clothes item that always makes you feel better?
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Once a bad guy always a bad guy? No 🌹 – he has a good heart and a kind soul

Ok this evening something happened that made me think a little. My ex, the one I moved in with when I was 17 who hit me a lot and hurt me physically and mentally for 1 1/2 years before he went to prison for what he did to me, started following me on instagram tonight. It felt weird.

I blocked him on Facebook many years ago after he sent a friend request… and I have not thought that much about him since… until two days ago when we were in Jönköping. He walked passed us when we were out shopping in Jönköping. I never even thought he would look me up and follow me on instagram though.

As I told my boyfriend about this he got really upset and said it was not ok and that I should block him immediately. But I didnt at first. Somehow I feel like I am tired of running away from my past. This was a guy I fell in love with when I was 17. A guy I lived with for 1 1/2 years. A guy who I know has a good heart and a kind soul who has been through a lot of horrible things as a child. I don’t blame him at all for how things played out when I was with him… 18 years ago. I was a completely different person back then, I had no self-esteem and I was so incredibly insecure. Of course we were a perfect match back then and our insecurities and trauma brought out the worst in us. But I don’t blame him – the fault is mine just as well.

We had our experiences together and I feel nothing but appreciation for the lessons it taught me. I want peace. I want relief. I want to let go and lovingly move on. I want to say I am sorry for everything, I want to say thank you for the experiences and the lessons and the growth I have been gifted with since this time. Thank you and I wish you nothing but peace, love and happiness in all aspects of your life. 🌹

But, after giving it some thought I decided to block him anyway. He might have good intentions and all that but for me it feels like relief to not have him following me at all.

Because of all the pain and suffering – you can become the most confident, beautiful, happy and empowered person ever🌹

It doesn’t matter what you have been through or how difficult your life might seem at the moment – you can let all of it inspire you to now become more confident, beautiful, happy, loving and empowered.

Easily said but is it really true? Is it possible? Of course it is! All it takes is a very, very small desire within you to feel better. That is all. If you have that wanting, no matter how slight, then you can do it. No matter what. It doesn’t matter if you have spent your entire life hating yourself and feeling like a powerless victim – you can become the most confident, blissful, beautiful and empowered person, now.

I grew up with an alcoholic father and my parents mentally abused me all through my childhood until they died – whether they ment to or not. I was sexually abused by three older boys when I was around 6 years old. I was bullied in school, I had reading and writing difficulties, I got anorexia when I was 9 years old, I was raped by two boys when I was 17. I ran away from home a few weeks after that, straight into the arms of an older guy who also had an alcohol addiction and who abused me physically and mentally for almost two years before there was a trial and he went to prison. During that time my mother died. I had no self-esteem what so ever and I absolutely hated myself, I felt like a powerless victim and even wanted to end my life. Then I got pregnant and had to make an abortion, the love of my life cheated on me and then my father died. 🤣

Somewhere around that time – when I was 24 years old – I decided that enough is enough and I felt that I wanted to feel better about myself. So, I began improving my thinking about myself and everything else and little by little I blossomed into the most confident, happy and empowered woman I had always desired to me. As a bonus, I got a job I adored and still work at, got the boyfriend I desired, got huge pay raises, got pregnant twice and had my two little babies… but all of those things are just great bonuses – the most important thing is: I feel good about myself. If I could do it, anyone can. ❤

I got an exciting assignment at work 😊

Today I went back to work again, and one of my bosses asked me to do something really exciting: She wanted me to talk to all her teachers at a meeting next week. She wanted me to tell them my story, what I have been through and how I managed to turn my entire life around. How cool!

I really look forward to this! I feel so blessed to have such caring bosses that really value me and my talents. I feel so appreciated. 💖

Never give up my dear ❤

No matter what you have been through or how bad you feel – you can improve your life and feel good again. It all begins with you and your thoughts. This is where you make the change – the circumstances might be far from how you want them to be but it does not matter. It has to be an emotional journey first, then you will view everything in a new light.

All those difficulties can actually inspire you to now become stronger, more confident, more happy, more free and more empowered. There is value in everything but it all begins with you and the thoughts you choose. Your perspective is what makes all the difference. ❤

” The strongest people are not those who show strength in front of us, but those who win battles we know nothing about.”

Unwanted experiences – experiences that strenghten you

Everything we go through has the potential of making us stronger, happier and more empowered if we choose to let it. No matter what has happened. ❤

You are never a helpless victim with no choice. You always have the choice of how you look at what happened, and that will make all the difference in your life from now on. Sexual abuse? Mental abuse? Physical abuse? Bullying? Heart break? Deadly diseases? Eating disorders? You name it. It doesn’t matter how seemingly small or big the issue might be, you can always choose your perspective of the experience, you can always lovingly support yourself and sooth yourself into relief. Little by little you can turn your entire thinking around – and therfore your emotions around – and that is when magic starts to happen. ❤

You can go through what ever it is you are going through while feeling fear or you can go through it feeling a hopeful. It is a very different perspective and it will improve not only how you feel about yourself, the experience and your life – it will also improve every aspect of your life. Attitude and how you feel matters more than anything.

You are what you CHOOSE to become 

Self blame and keeping it all inside? No more! ❤


Fuck self-blame! Fuck keeping it all inside! I was only 5-6 years old the first time – never told anyone. The most painful event happened when I was 17. Never told anyone about that either. Kept it all inside, blamed myself. It wasnt until I was 24 years old that I BEGAN processing it all. Did it all by myself. 

Sexual abuse, physical abuse and mental abuse – will it ever heal?

We are all unique and every person experiences life in a unique way. I only speak what I know works for me.

Without going into too much specifics I can say that I have been through a lot of things in my life. Things that brought me to the point where I hated myself, had no self-esteem and even tried to take my own life. I had a difficult childhood with an alcoholic parent. I have been bullied, been sexually abused multiple times, physically abused, had anorexia, ran away from home when I was 17 and ended up in an abusive relationship. My mother died when I was 18 years old and my father died a few years after that, I went through an abortion and much more…

The only way I found to ease my emotional pain when I was a child was by eating delicious food. It worked wonderful, for a moment. But of course the feeling didn’t last because I used external things to make myself feel better. Back then I had no idea that I could improve my own thinking and by that affect how I was feeling. I felt like a powerless victim to all these bad experiences and my hatred for myself continued to get stronger through the years.

It was not until I was 24 years old that I decided I had to do something to improve how I was feeling – and that was when I found out about the authour Louise Hay and started reading her book “You can heal your life”. That was when my changes began. I began to improve my thinking and the effect of my changes were instant. Everything in my life began improving to reflect that positive mental change I was making. I started reading and listening to the teachings of Abraham Hicks and the law of attraction and continued improving my thinking. Within a few years I had changed my entire beliefsystem.

I went from no self-esteem to total self-empowerment, and I did it all by myself. Everything in my life improved as I improved my thinking. I got my dream job, I met the man of my dreams, I could eat what ever I desired and have the body I desired, I got pregnant and easily gave birth to my two little babies who are now 1 years old and 3 years old. We bought a beautiful big house, a sporty car and I got huge payraises at work… but the most important thing was that I felt good! 

This is a wonderful journey of transformation to take and my journey is far from over. It is an endless journey and life will continue to get better and better if you allow it. 

So, to answer the question above – will it ever heal? Yes and no. If you work on improving your thinking, then yes. If you don’t do anything to improve your thinking, then no. You have to find your own ways to improve your thinking, and you have to be gentle with yourself every step of the way. Do I always feel good? No. I still return to some old negative thoughts from time to time and when I do it feels breathtakingly awful. Sometimes it lasts only a day, sometimes more. But now I know what to do, and I know it is only temporary. No matter what you have been through in your life, you CAN improve your life and become the person you want to be. It is never too late, you can begin again, right now. I am here with you, we are all in this together. ♡

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