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Feeling blue – go for blue, pink or red 😊

Whenever I feel sad I always change clothes – putting on something blue, pink or red always brings me relief.

  • Do you have a special color or a special clothes item that always makes you feel better?
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You’re hot, then you’re cold – fuck you life

The first half of the day was really cold, I had to wear my autumn pants and a long sleeved top at work. But when I got home the weather had become a little warmer so I chose a shorter top for the afternoon.

The weather has been really weird the last couple of days. It has been super cold – almost like autumn. And today it was very bi-polar like 😂. Cold, then hot … then cold, then hot again… kind of like my mood lately. A lot of things have happened and are happening around me and I have not yet found my emotional stability.

Sometimes I just want to give up, say fuck you to life and run away. Just thinking that thought brings me a little relief. Fuck you life. Fuck you work. Fuck you new assignments. Fuck you annoying person at the day care center. Fuck you.

Yes indeed, it does feel better. I guess can stay in this general negative place for a while before I reach for more relief in more positive, general thoughts.

Treat yourself with kindness and respect ❤

Just take gentle baby steps. Think of each day as a new opportunity to love yourself more and be kinder to yourself. One thing at a time, not only one day at a time but one hour and even one moment at a time.

Release all stress, all worry, all insecurity and all fear and lovingly fill your mind with thoughts of kindness and love. Think thoughts that bring you relief, like:

I honor myself, I care about how I feel, I listen to my body’s messages with love, I treat myself with kindness and respect. I am doing the best I can in each moment, given the beliefs, desires, awareness, knowledge I have and the emotional place I am in at the time. I am doing alright, I am doing ok. One step at a time. I am lovingly supporting myself every step of the way.

Pause your mind and ease into a reliefgiving scenario 🌱

Take a break mentally. Close your eyes, relax and take a deep breath. Imagine a scenario that feels like relief to you. Perhaps a waterfall in the forest…

Imagine yourself there, feel the soothing atmosphere embrace you and comfort you. Feel the cool relief wash through your body. Feel how much lighter and relaxed you feel as you stay in the scenario for a while and just enjoy the moment.

Do this from time to time through out your day. Find moments here and there were you just press pause mentally on everything and find relief from your inner scenario.

It doesn’t matter what you are going through or what you have done – you can find relief and you can feel better again. It begins with the small, seemingly insignificant things like what you are choosing to think and say. Therefore, take some time to pause your mind and just ease into your inner reliefgiving scenario.

Become one with nature 🌱

The only thing that matters in my life: my two little babies ❤❤

Remind yourself of what really matters in life. For me it is my two little babies. I love them more than life itself.

I also feel good when I try on some clothes – like this beautiful dress I chose for tonight. But nothing brings me as much relief as the thought of my babies does. They are the only thing that truly matters in my life and the only ones I love. ❤

Your life is your canvas, each day is a new page

Imagine if today was a blank page… you could fill it with what ever your heart desires… it would be so different from yesterday’s page… full of color, light, passion and zest… full of ease, pleasure and satisfaction…

Your life is your canvas. Each day is a new page. Feel free to fill each new page with what you desire most. Let no one dim your light, let no one tell you what you fill your page with… follow your heart, listen to your calling and enjoy filling today’s page with what you desire most.

The one thing that made me feel relief when my mother died ❤

Sometimes it just seems unfair. Today I got to know that a person that I have know for many years is going to die sometime in June/July/August. Not much time life. Why?

I remember feeling the same cold, dark quietness within me when I was 18 years old, in May 2002, when a doctor told us my mother had only a few months left to live. There was nothing they could do back then either. It was cancer then too. Why? My mom died in September that year, on 11/9 2002. 4 months after we had spoken to the doctor.

When she had died I remember feeling chocked that the world around us just kept on living, that life just kept moving forward – as if her life ment nothing. I remember how painful it was for me, how many burning tears of despair I wept… the endless black hole within me. The difficulty to breathe at night, when it was dark. The anxiety and death wish I began to feel.

I remember driving home to my parents house, spending the night going through old photographs of my mother… going through her closet to find something that I could take home with me and keep as a reminder. But nothing helped until one night, shortly after. I dreamt a very strong dream. I dreamt that I went back to my parents house again, that I went into a specific room, looked up to my right at a specific spot on a shelf, that I took down a magazine holder there and pulled something out if it. Then I woke up.

The dream was incredibly intense, felt incredibly real and was incredibly clear and detailed. As I woke up I felt I HAD TO GO AND DO WHAT I HAD DONE IN THAT DREAM. And so I did.

I went to my parents house again, went into that specific room, looked up to my right on the shelf, saw a magazine holder right where I had looked in my dream. Took it down, looked inside it and found my mom’s journal from the year when her father died (when she was in her early twenties). In it she had written exactly how she felt when her father had died and how she made herself feel relief about it.

Now THAT was an incredible experience that made me feel so much relief about my mother’s death. There is absolutely no way that I would ever have gone in to that room and looked in that magazine holder if I had not dreamt that dream. No way. I had no idea she had kept a journal from that year – she had never ever mentioned it or anything about her father’s death either. I found this simply because of my dream. I knew some how that it was a message from my mother, and that belief gave me relief.

Death cannot be meaningless, death cannot be a sentence, death cannot be a punishment – death cannot be the end.

I have come to believe that death is just a shift of perspective. Yes, you leave your body but who you really are continues to live and shine brighter than ever. I have no evidence, no facts, no stories told by dead people… just my belief. It gives me comfort, it gives me relief and it makes me feel better about my parent’s deaths, my student’s death, my friends’ deaths and everyone else’s death as well, including my own.

So yes, I felt that same dark, empty quietness within me when I heard the news today, but I also feel there is meaning in life as well as in death. There is no end, only a change of perspective. He will forever live on, this is just a transition. His pain will end and this movie called his life here on earth at this time will end too, but it is not the end of who he really is. ❤

A beautiful way to deal with negative emotions

Try this today: just be aware of how you feel and what you think and say. Whenever you notice that you begin to speak, think and feel a bit negatively – ask yourself if it is worth giving up Life force just for this. And no, it is not.

Every second you spend complaining, worrying, feeling resentful, guilty or any other negative emotion, you break down your body, your health and you block yourself a little bit more from the joyful life experiences you desire. It truly is a matter of blocking life force (when you feel negative) or allowing life force (when you feel good – no matter how slight).

When you let go of the negative focus and allow yourself to feel better, your health and your body will benefit immediately. A healthy, and beautiful body and a truly happy life begins with your mind and the perspective you choose to have.

There are different ways of viewing every single topic in the world, you do not have to be negative, complain and feel worry or guilt at all. You can sooth yourself by leaning in a more general way and ever so slightly shift your perspective. This is the fun and exciting part about life because you truly are in charge – 100% – of how you feel and because of that you affect everything that happens to you. Now that is true freedom and empowerment when you understand this! And yes, it is a never ending journey – but you can begin right now. ❤

Summer outside but a rainy autumn inside ❤

New seasons bring new feelings, don’t force yourself into feeling and doing what those around you expect you to feel and do. Take it in your own pace, make sure you are comfortable with yourself first and foremost.

Nothing matters more than how you feel – and if you can’t find that sunny, happy, blissfull and confident summer’s feeling – it doesn’t matter. Allow yourself to feel as you feel, be kind to yourself. Wear the clothes that make you feel good, wear the shoes that make you feel good and do the things that feel a little bit better to you in each moment.

There really are no “shoulds” or “have to” – there are only choices that may feel a little better or a little worse. Allow yourself to choose what feels a little bit better to you.

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