15 Jun 2019
by joypassiondesire
in How to allow
Tags: abuse, battered, broken, bruised, condemn, crime, criminal, empowering, faith, forgive, forgiveness, humanity, hurt, inspirational, judge, mental abuse, motivational, pain, physical abuse, rape, sexual abuse, trust, victim
You can take my heart and break it, you can hurt me and leave my body body bruised and battered – you can even shatter my trust and faith in humanity – it will only be temporary. My kindness and my strenght, my trust and my love will always increase eternally.
No matter what happens, I see no reason to hate, to condemn or to fear because I do not judge to begin with. I trust there is goodness within everyone, and if you find it in your heart to feel better, you will treat other people better as well.
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13 Jun 2019
by joypassiondesire
in Empowering, Self-esteem
Tags: abuse, confidence, empowering, faith, forgiveness, goodness, hope, inner strenght, inspirational, kindness, me too, mental abuse, motivational, physical abuse, rape, self esteem, sexual abuse, trauma
If you thought you could break me, you were wrong. I have been through worse, I am resilient and my strenght has increased because of you.
If you thought I would give up and hide, you were wrong. I stand here on a solid foundation, shining my bright light in all the beautiful colors I desire to.
If you thought I would forgive you, you were right. I still believe in the goodness in everyone, I am still the kind, caring woman I have always been. I still follow my bliss and I will always enjoy life in ways that please me.
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12 Jun 2019
by joypassiondesire
in sadness
Tags: abuse, anxiety, break down, emotional, fear, flashbacks, insecurity, memories, mental abuse, pain, physical abuse, powerlessness, ptsd, rape, sadness, sexual abuse, trauma, worry
I cared about you and yet you took my kindness and my trust and shattered it into millions of pieces.
Your arms and hands were so strong, I didn’t have a chance. The pain and all the bruises you left on my body were nothing compared to the utter powerlessness I felt when tried to pull your hands away from my body, when I looked into your eyes and I begged you to stop, when I said no and you just put your cold hand firmly over my mouth… Then you did exactly what I feared you would do.
My body froze and my heart was beating so loud. The fear I felt froze every inch of my body. But you didn’t even hesitate.
I can forgive everything and I don’t want to hurt you back – I just want to get away from that suffocating powerless feeling that haunts me every second of every fucking moment of every fucking day. The feeling that no matter how much I tried to get you to stop, you didn’t. You crushed my most sacred boundary.
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09 Jun 2019
by joypassiondesire
in Empowering
Tags: #Strenght, abortion, abuse, bullying, death of parents, eating disorders, empowering, feel better, hope, hurt, infidelity, insecurity, inspirational, mental abuse, motivational, pain, physical abuse, rape, sadness, sexual abuse, suffering, wellbeing
Take your pain and turn it into something beautiful. Express yourself in ways that call you, create beauty out of your suffering and show the world that there is value and benefit with everything that happens. Turn your pain into your strenght.
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01 Jun 2019
by joypassiondesire
in Empowering, Happiness, Health, How to allow, Love and relationship, Love your body, money, sadness, Self-esteem, work
Tags: abortion, abuse, alcoholic parents, anorexia, body image, bullying, cheating, death of parents, eating disorders, emotional wounds, feel better, heal, healing, infidelity, inner strenght, insecurity, mental abuse, physical abuse, ptsd, rape, self esteem, sexual abuse, time, wounds
No, it doesn’t get easier with time – it is you who get stronger. Time will pass, nevertheless, but the getting stronger part is up to you.
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22 May 2019
by joypassiondesire
in Empowering, sadness
Tags: abortion, abuse, addictions, alcoholic, anorexia, belief, bullying, death of parents, desires, dreams, eating disorders, empowering, faith, give up, hope, inspirational, mental abuse, mindfullness, mistakes, motivational, pain, physical abuse, problems, rape, sexual abuse, suffering, trust, unwanted experiences, wisdom
All negative experiences, all pain, all mistakes and all shattered dreams can be the perfect, solid, nourishing foundation to grow from.
Strenght is not given, it is built. And you build it one small moment at a time. Be kind to yourself, you are doing so much better than you think. No matter how muddy the water might be, the lotus flower can still emerge beautifully radiant.
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13 Apr 2019
by joypassiondesire
in sadness
Tags: #metoo, broken, humiliation, hurt, insecurity, limits, mental abuse, pain, painful, physical abuse, ptsd, rape, sadness, sexual abuse, shame, trust
In the lonliest of moments, in the darkest of nights, the thoughts of what happened always return. The worst part was not the pain, the humiliation or all the bruises you made on my body… the worst part was the second after I said no, when I begged you not to do it, and you just placed your cold hand firmly over my mouth while you did exactly what I feared you would do. The powerlessness I felt in that moment was the worst most debilitating feeling I have ever felt.
It has been 7 months now, and yet not a day has gone by without me having a thousand flashbacks to that moment. Not a night goes by without a painful memory that haunts me in the dark. No prison sentence and no money will ever erase that painful moment.
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28 Mar 2019
by joypassiondesire
in sadness
Tags: #say no, afraid, broken, fear, give up, heal, healing, hurt, insecurity, limits, me too, mental abuse, no, pain, physical abuse, rape, sexual abuse, unwanted experiences
A no is a no. And no, it doesn’t matter that you have an amazing figure. No, it doesn’t matter that your clothes are sexy and tight. No, it doesn’t matter that you know the person. No, it doesn’t matter that no one else saw it or heard it. A no is a fucking no.
You looked at me and I begged you to stop. I felt like a fragile bunny that the hunter was just about to shoot with his gun. My heart was beating so fast and so loud. I tried to get away, I begged you to stop, I said no, I reached for your hands and tried to pull them away from my body… but you grabbed them firmly and as I contined to beg you not to do it, you took your big cold hand and placed it firmly over my mouth… and with the other hand you did exactly what I feared you would do. You were too strong. I had no chance.
You didn’t listen to my no, you didn’t care that my body was scared to death, you didn’t mind hurting me in order to satisfy your burning desire for more.
Why did you ignore me when I begged you not to do it? Why cannot limits be respected? You said; because my body was so irresistable. So curvy, so sexy, so hot that you just had to do it. Is that a valid excuse? Does it make it all ok? No. A no is a fucking no.
But that was then, this is now. I am alive. No one can ever hurt me so much that my love and zest for life goes away. I am stronger. I will never let anyone or anything dim my light. I am not broken – just temporarily off my balance.
Because of this I will shine even brighter one day and feel even more free and empowered. I truly believe that everything that happens to you can be a source of inspiration for you to now become the best, most good-feeling and empowered version of you. Just allow yourself the time you need to heal first. One step at a time.
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