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Why would such a beautiful girl like me hate myself for over 30 years and have no self-esteem? Here is why:

I got such a brilliant question today and here is my answer:

I grew up with an alcoholic father and my parents mentally abused me. I was sexually abused when I was 6 years old by 3 older guys, I was bullied in school, had reading and writing difficulties, had no friends, developed anorexia (an eating disorder) when I was 9 years old, had no friends during my entire school years, was raped by two guys when I was 17, ran away from home two weeks after that because my father’s alcohol abuse was insane and my parents were so verbally mean to me, I ran straight into the arms of a guy who physically and mentally abused me for over two years until he was sentenced to prison for it. During this time my mother died. I had to go through the two trials all alone – I had no one. I was completely alone, no friends and no one in the world that I could talk to. I did not want to live anymore – I even tried to take my own life. Then my father died, I got pregnant and had to make an abortion…and the man of my dreams cheated on me and lied about it for over a year until the truth came out in the most painful way ever… somewhere there, around the age of 24, I decided that enough is enough and I chose to change my thinking. I started working on liking myself. I did it all by myself – I never told ANYONE about any of these things that happened to me in my childhood/teenage years. It was not until I was almost 30 years old I began talking about it.

So, I guess this answers your question on why such a beautiful girl like me, hated myself for almost 30 years and had absolutely no self-esteem ๐Ÿคฃโค

How you FEEL has nothing to do with the way you look. I had my desired, dream body, but I hated myself and had no self-esteem for almost 30 years. Beauty does not mean confidence. You cant see how you feel, it is 100% about your own thinking – and you CAN do something about that. If I could, all by myself, anyone can. ๐ŸŒนโค

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How to move on from these unwanted experiences and feel good again โค๐ŸŒฑ

You feel the way you do because you think the way you do – and you can do something about that!

You are never limited by your past, present or future experiences – the only thing that limits you is your own thinking about your past, present and future experiences – and you can do something about that!

Realise the amazing potential to feel good that you have – right now. No matter what you have been through or what you are going through. You can’t change the past but you can change how you view it, and that will make all the difference.

There is value and benefit with everything that happens – everything can inspire you to focus more clearly on what you now know you desire and prefer as a result of this experience. How do you WANT to FEEL? Who do you WANT to BE? What do you WANT to DO?

The potential for happiness is within you, always. It truly is an inside job. Sure, it is easier to feel good when everything goes your way but there is no skill in just looking around and reaching to what happens! True skill, true freedom and true empowerment is when things are not going the way you want them to and you choose to focus on the value, you choose to be selective in your focus and you choose to let all these unwanted things inspire you to now focus more on what you now know you desire and prefer instead. That takes skill and that is the answer to how you move on and find value in everything.

Never give up! It is never too late, there is always hope โค

Today I did it. I told the story of my life – about all the difficulties I have been through and how I turned my life around – for a room full of co-workers. I was so nervous I was shaking as I began, but I managed brilliantly to tell the whole story without crying.

This is the first time I have told my whole story to more than just one or two people at the same time. Afterwards I felt so much relief. To finally be able to speak up for myself, to tell my story and share these dark moments that I have kept hidden within for over three decades now. So powerful.

Never give up. No matter what you have been through in your life or how difficult it might seem at the moment, you can feel good again because you can improve your thinking and therefore you can improve every aspect of your life. โค

I got an exciting assignment at work ๐Ÿ˜Š

Today I went back to work again, and one of my bosses asked me to do something really exciting: She wanted me to talk to all her teachers at a meeting next week. She wanted me to tell them my story, what I have been through and how I managed to turn my entire life around. How cool!

I really look forward to this! I feel so blessed to have such caring bosses that really value me and my talents. I feel so appreciated. ๐Ÿ’–

2 500 followers and 550 000 views on my blog ๐Ÿ˜

My purpose with my blog is to share what I did to turn my life around. This is where I share my thoughts and my beliefs – all the things I wish someone had told me before all my difficulties began. โค I want you to know that no matter what you have been through in your life or how difficult it might seem at the moment, you CAN improve your thinking and therfore improve your entire life.

โค Thank you all for liking, commenting and sharing my posts. โค It feels so good to write and post here, this is my safe haven, and it feels even better that so many of you feel inspired by my posts. ๐ŸŒน๐ŸŒน๐ŸŒน

The one thing that hurt me the most and ripped me apart โค

It was not the sexual abuse, it was not the physical abuse, it was not the mental abuse, it was not the eating disorders, it was not the bullying, it was not the loneliness, it was not my alcoholic parents, it was not the deaths of my parents… or any of the other things that happened to me.

I was the one who let the opinions of others affect my opinion of me, which ripped me apart.

And I was the one who decided to start liking myself again.

No matter what – YOU – have all the power you will ever need within. โค

50 000 in my bank account ๐ŸŒŸ

I woke up with 50 000 in my bank account today! It feels freaking awesome!!!! I have made my own way to this place where I am right now. I don’t have any parents or anyone else to turn to when I need help – I have walked alone, went through all the difficulties alone – and I succeeded in turning my life and my attitude around. I feel proud over what I have accomplished, I am a strong, free and empowered woman. 

My two babies, my job, my house, my car, my boyfriend, my body, my money… it is all just fun side effects of the changes in my attitude – the most important part is that I FEEL GOOD, I like my life, I love my two little babies and I adore my journey. More deliciousness is on my path and I am enjoying every step along the way. 

Fit mother of two ๐Ÿ‘

After having spent almost 3 decades hating myself and having no self-esteem what so ever, this feels like a breath of fresh air. I am loving my fit body! 

It feels so good to enjoy being who I choose to be. Finally I am in a point in my life where I like myself, my personality and everything about me. Such a freeing feeling. 

Self blame and keeping it all inside? No more! โค


Fuck self-blame! Fuck keeping it all inside! I was only 5-6 years old the first time – never told anyone. The most painful event happened when I was 17. Never told anyone about that either. Kept it all inside, blamed myself. It wasnt until I was 24 years old that I BEGAN processing it all. Did it all by myself. 

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