When everything is painted in black and anxiety is your only friend

There are days when everything is painted in black no matter how clear the sky might be…

Days when panic and anxiety is your only company even though you are surrounded by your friends…

These days come and go like the waves on the ocean. They do not last, just like a wave they will eventually peter out


From raging insecurities to strong empowerment 🌼

“(…) Can you hear the whispers all across the room?
You feel her eyes all over you like cheap perfume
You’re beautiful, but misunderstood
So why you tryna be just like the neighborhood?
I can see it, I know what you’re feelin’
So let me tell you ’bout my little secret
I’m a little crazy underneath this
Underneath this
Do you ever feel like a misfit?
Everything inside you is dark and twisted
Oh, but it’s okay to be different
‘Cause baby, so am I (So am I, so am I, so am I)
Do you ever feel like an outcast?
You don’t have to fit into the format
Oh, but it’s okay to be different
‘Cause baby, so am I (So am I, so am I, so am I-I-I-I-I) (…) “

Ava Max,” So am I”

No matter what you look like, what body type you have or what clothes you have – people will look at you and some will judge you. There will always be those who love the way you look and those who completely disapprove of everything that you are. Let them think as they choose to.

The beautiful part about life is when you finally give up trying to please everyone else, when you finally shake loose from caring about their disapproval or approval. There is so much freedom and empowerment to be felt when you start giving yourself the love and approval you previously tried to get from other people and external things.

It is a process. It takes time. I began working on this 12 years ago, when I was 24. I have come such a long way, I went from having no self esteem what so ever, from feeling like a helpless victim and feeling I had to please everyone around me in order to deserve to be liked a little – I went from all that to really liking myself, inside and outside no matter what other people think of me. I began to appreciate life, to appreciate all experiences – especially the bad ones because they helped inspire me to now become stronger.

I would not even be the happy, confident and empowered woman I am today without every single bad thing that ever happened to me. So I am grateful, for all of it. My entire way of viewing life is 100% different from how I viewed life 12 years ago. If I can change all these limiting insecurities, anyone can.

And no, the external things didn’t change before I felt better. I still look exactly the same way as I did before, I have the same job, the same relationship, I have still gone through all those awful things in my life that left me on the brink of despair – and I have since then gone through even more negative experiences in all aspects of my life. And yet here I am, happier and stronger than ever. Loving life, loving my body and feeling appreciation for every step along my way. Feeling appreciation for every rascal that ever hurt me because I am who I am today because of it all. It is an endless journey that I intend to enjoy. 🙏

When you have been brutally broken by life and yet you rise up and find your inner peace 🌱

It is easy to be happy when life is good. It is easy to call yourself strong when life is smooth and easy. But true strenght is when time after time you have been brutally broken by life and you have been totally stripped of all your joys and passions, and yet you rise up and find your inner peace once again. That is strenght and that is inspiring. 🌱

I will hold your hand through the darkness

Come to me, I will hold your hand through the darkness. I know there will be stars to light up your path.

You don’t have to dry your tears or hide your pain. Come as you are, feel as you feel. Even in you weakest of moments your heart and soul radiate love, kindness and an ever increasing strenght. I can see through all the pain, all the hurt and all shattered dreams and what I see is beautiful. 🌹

The beauty in your despair, your guiding light out of the darkness 🙏

There can be something very beautiful in your despair, because that can be the moment when a sparkle of hope is born.

Once hope has begun to glimmer within you, relief will follow.

Hope is your guiding light out of the darkness, hope can make everything possible once again.

Will your heart need a life time to heal? Then so be it 🙏

Let it take the time it needs. Some hearts heal quickly, others need a life time to heal. Be kind to yourself every step of the way.

Don’t listen to the crowd, listen to your heart. How do you feel? Honor your feelings by acknowledging them, approving of them and allowing them.

There is no shame, no guilt and no blame. Just acceptance, kindness and love. 🙏 Be your own best friend and support yourself no matter what happens.

When it feels so awful you can hardly breathe and you are boiling with anger, resentment and frustration

When you are in a situation that feels so awful you can hardly breathe and you are boiling with anger, resentment and frustration on the inside – how do you break this negative cycle?

The first step is to make peace with your emotions. Say things like: “This is how I feel, and that is ok. What has happened has happened, I am where I am. If I had known better I would have acted differently, but what happened happened and I choose to make peace with it.”

The second step is to acknowledge that the emotional pain you are feeling is not really about the situation itself but a product of your own thoughts and beliefs about the situation. The great part about this is that you can change your thinking about this situation and therfore you can affect how you feel. You cannot change what happened, you cannot go back in time and act differently – but you can change how you view the situation and that will make all the difference!

When you change how you view it, you will not only change how you feel but you will also prepare yourself mentally for the next time these limiting thoughts come up, so there is a valuable and strengthening bonus in this! Next time you end up in a smilar situation you will act differently because you have changed your thoughts regarding this topic.

Solitude is as valuable to me as the very air I breathe

Solitude matters, and for some people it is the air they breathe.”

– Susan Cane

I feel the best when I am alone. I value my alone time so much, it feels like my entire being finds peace in those moments. Solitude is as valuable to me as the very air I breathe. Without it I would perish. I am hardly ever alone so when I get a few moments of being completely alone – I really enjoy it.

At work I am surrounded by my students and my co-workers at all times and at home I am surrounded by my two little babies and my boyfriend at all times 😂. I love my job and I love my two little babies but I love my alone time just as much.

It is important to make time for things that replenishes your energy, daily. It doesn’t have to be big things, little things can be just as valuable. And we are all unique, and we all like different things so listen to your body and seek that which replenishes your energy.

In the midst of despair – know that this too shall pass

There are days when I shatter into millions of pieces, days when I cannot find hope. But, even in the midst of despair I know that this too shall pass. Night will come, and my body, mind and soul will get some rest.

Even the worst of days will come to an end. No matter how bad I have felt during my day – when darkness falls outside and everything is quiet, I find some relief.

Tomorrow is a new day, a new opportunity to be kinder to myself and be more selective in my focus. 🙏

I embrace my newly awakened zest for life

As I walk into this day, I do so with an open heart. I am at peace with what was, grateful for what is and passionate about what will be.

My body and mind sparkle with a newly awakened zest for life, with passionate desires and with an insatiable lust for more.

I leave all my shadows behind as I fully embrace the radiant and promising moment of today.

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