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When your heart is dying and your soul is slowly suffocating

When it feels like you are standing on very unstable ground… when the storm within you tears you apart again and again with such painful force… and yet you smile and say thank you to those around you…

They know nothing about the brutal chaos within you that tears you apart… they don’t see, they don’t hear, they don’t care… all they see is your smile, all they hear is your kindness, all they care about is the successful results you bring… but all of that means nothing when your heart is dying and your soul is slowly suffocating…

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Because of all the pain and suffering – you can become the most confident, beautiful, happy and empowered person ever🌹

It doesn’t matter what you have been through or how difficult your life might seem at the moment – you can let all of it inspire you to now become more confident, beautiful, happy, loving and empowered.

Easily said but is it really true? Is it possible? Of course it is! All it takes is a very, very small desire within you to feel better. That is all. If you have that wanting, no matter how slight, then you can do it. No matter what. It doesn’t matter if you have spent your entire life hating yourself and feeling like a powerless victim – you can become the most confident, blissful, beautiful and empowered person, now.

I grew up with an alcoholic father and my parents mentally abused me all through my childhood until they died – whether they ment to or not. I was sexually abused by three older boys when I was around 6 years old. I was bullied in school, I had reading and writing difficulties, I got anorexia when I was 9 years old, I was raped by two boys when I was 17. I ran away from home a few weeks after that, straight into the arms of an older guy who also had an alcohol addiction and who abused me physically and mentally for almost two years before there was a trial and he went to prison. During that time my mother died. I had no self-esteem what so ever and I absolutely hated myself, I felt like a powerless victim and even wanted to end my life. Then I got pregnant and had to make an abortion, the love of my life cheated on me and then my father died. 🤣

Somewhere around that time – when I was 24 years old – I decided that enough is enough and I felt that I wanted to feel better about myself. So, I began improving my thinking about myself and everything else and little by little I blossomed into the most confident, happy and empowered woman I had always desired to me. As a bonus, I got a job I adored and still work at, got the boyfriend I desired, got huge pay raises, got pregnant twice and had my two little babies… but all of those things are just great bonuses – the most important thing is: I feel good about myself. If I could do it, anyone can. ❤

30 years of hating myself ❤

A friend triggered me into thinking a little this morning. I realized that after having spent around 30 years absolutely hating myself and hating my entire body and face – hating everything about me – I still have a long way to go. 🌟

But I will not give up, I am still on my journey, it is a never ending journey. Some days I feel better about myself and some days I don’t. I am making slow and steady progress. It is all in my head, all about my thoughts, and I have already come such a long way! 10 years ago I was a completely different person (even though I looked exactly the same ). These things cannot be seen, it is an insecurity within.

Act like you love yourself ❤

Mistakes that bring you to your knees

When you have made the same mistakes a thousand times and you feel like you just want to give up; sooth yourself into remembering that it is ok! You are doing the best you can with the knowledge and awareness you have at the time.

Don’t beat up on yourself for the mistakes you have made, no matter how many times you have made them or how seemingly wrong they are. Punishing yourself by feeling guilt or blame will only make things worse. Love yourself unconditionally and give yourself the opportunity to start again, right now – fresh and new.

Keep focusing on how you want to behave, how you want to feel and the desired outcome. See yourself succeeding with what you desire, see yourself being the person you want to be. Embrace yourself and believe in yourself. You can change, you can choose differently and you can succeed.

Embrace the love that is flowing to you at all times ❤

You are so valuable and loved, simply because you exist. You don’t have to do anything or change anything – embrace the never ending love that is flowing to you at all times.

Never mind what he thinks about you or what they say about you – how YOU feel about yourself is what affects everything in your life.

Practice thinking loving thoughts, comforting thoughts and uplifting thoughts about yourself and feel the magic that follows.

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