Your fear hurts you more than the situation itself – but your fear cannot kill you

Life has a way of working out no matter how dark and hopeless it temporarily might seem. Don’t give up, keep breathing. Your fear hurts you more than the situation itself – but your fear cannot kill you. Breathe through it and realize you are ok, now. You are safe. You are secure. No one is going to hurt you. Open your eyes and realize you have been afraid of nothing but mere shadows in your own mind. ๐Ÿ™


You shattered my sense of security – but you cannot break me

You tore my trust in humanity into pieces. You shattered my sense of security. You darkened my heart. But you did not, and you will not EVER break me. I am stronger than all of that, I will grow stronger because of it. ๐Ÿ™

Every breath I take gives me hope of a better tomorrow ๐Ÿ™

My heart is still beating for me. Life is still coursing through my veins. In the stillness of the night, when darkness embraces me and gives me comfort, when the entire world is resting, my every breath gives me hope of a better tomorrow.

Stop tormenting yourself – let it go and focus on things that feel good


I know you were hurt, and afraid – but that was then and this is now. The pain only lasted less than an hour. Why would you be so willing to keep tormenting yourself by replaying the painful scenario again and again, now? Totally unnecessary and foolish really. Maybe it is time for you to stop hurting yourself with your memories and start focusing on all the things in your life that feel good?

This is a very gentle but very effective way to feel better โ€“ make up your mind to stop replaying the scenario, stop regurgitating the same old thoughts about what happened. It doesnโ€™t help you. It doesnโ€™t make you feel better. It is time to let that go. Time to embrace new, better feeling thoughts about other things. Make peace with 2018. Make peace with this year as well. Allow yourself to let it all go.

Fuck those who laugh at your insecurities – they don’t know even 1% of what you have been through ๐Ÿ™

So far, you have survived the toughest days of your life, give yourself some credit and allow yourself the time you need to heal.

Not only were you sexually abused early on in life by multiple older boys when you were 6 years old, you had no self-esteem what so ever, you were bullied, you had eating disorders at the age of 9, you grew up in a home with alcoholic parents, you had reading and writing difficulties, you were sexually abused by two boys when you were 17 years old, you ran away from home a week after that straight into the arms of a man who put you through domestic violence for 1 1/2 years before there was a trial and he was sentenced to prison for it, you experienced the death of your parents, your dream man cheated on you, you had to make an abortion against your will and much morenot only did you go through all that during the first 24 years of your life, you managed to turn all that pain into your strenght. You managed not only to survive but to THRIVE because you chose to let it all inspire you to grow stronger.

So – fuck those who call you weak. Fuck those who laugh at your insecurities. They don’t know even 1% of what you have been through in your life, no one knows of your pain and how it shaped you. No one knows how you have struggled to rise up. ๐Ÿ™

You are never limited by your past experiences โ˜€๏ธ

I know this sounds strange, but as a kid, I was really shy. Painfully shy. The turning point was freshman year, when I was the biggest geek alive. No one, I mean no one, even talked to me.”

– Jim Carrey

You are never limited by the person you used to be or the experiences you had in your past. You are not even limited by who you are today or what is happening in your life right now. Your future can be as bright and exciting as you secretly desire it to be. Everything is possible. How you feel is in your hands, and you can begin to affect that right now ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ˜Š.

The fear I felt froze every inch of my body, but you didn’t even hesitate

I cared about you and yet you took my kindness and my trust and shattered it into millions of pieces.

Your arms and hands were so strong, I didn’t have a chance. The pain and all the bruises you left on my body were nothing compared to the utter powerlessness I felt when tried to pull your hands away from my body, when I looked into your eyes and I begged you to stop, when I said no and you just put your cold hand firmly over my mouth… Then you did exactly what I feared you would do.

My body froze and my heart was beating so loud. The fear I felt froze every inch of my body. But you didn’t even hesitate.

I can forgive everything and I don’t want to hurt you back – I just want to get away from that suffocating powerless feeling that haunts me every second of every fucking moment of every fucking day. The feeling that no matter how much I tried to get you to stop, you didn’t. You crushed my most sacred boundary.

My shattered heart will mend and my restless soul will find peace

The tears I have cried and the pain I have felt have shattered my heart and left my soul restless.

These scars are only temporary though, my heart will mend and my soul will find peace.

No matter what happens, you cannot break me, only bend me temporarily. I will rise stronger each time. My pain and insecurity will be my solid foundation on which I rebuild my strenght.

My voice will no longer tremble when I speak your name

Your desire for more was so intense, you just had to do it. You didn’t listen to me when I begged you to stop, my “no” was silenced by your strong hands.

You wanted more, you wanted it all and you tried to break me to get it and you tried to silence my voice.

My voice will no longer tremble when I speak your name. I am stronger than this – I forgive you and I set myself free. Free to enjoy life again, free to love my body again and free to believe in the goodness in everyone. Including you.

No more tears – kick ass this Friday ๐Ÿ˜Š

I just woke up and it is Friday. I felt the uneasy feelings begin yesterday and right now I can feel insecurity and worry tremble within my body. A part of me wants to stay at home all day where it is safe and secure. But I know I have to face my insecurities again and again until they fade away and that is ok because it is part of the journey.

Before all this happened I used to love Fridays and I was always extra happy on those days – I intend to return to that. I am going to make peace with how I feel right now. I am going to focus on things I do like about today and remind myself that I am stronger than this. I am stronger because of this. I didn’t die. He didn’t break me, I have not lost my faith in the goodness in people. I forgive him, and I thank myself for getting through this. No matter how alone I was in this, I had my own support and I will continue to be here for me for as long as I shall live. No matter what happens.

There will be no tears this Friday, I will no longer pull away from my flashbacks – I will make peace with them and let them pass through my mind as just that – mere flashbacks. What ever comes my way – I will handle it. I am strong. I am forgiving. I believe in the goodness in all people. ๐Ÿ™ Now I will get up and kick some ass this Friday (mentally ๐Ÿ˜‚).

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