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A fun new habit that will improve your entire life

Have you been through a lot of negative things in your life?

Are there things in your life that you would like to improve?

What things do you secretly desire? To have your dream body? Finding the fountain of youth? To have endless abundance? Live with your dream partner? To feel confident, happy and empowered?

What ever your story might be and what ever it is you desire – you are in charge and you can do something about it, right now. Everything that happens to you happens for a reason and how you choose to react, what you choose to think about it and how you view every topic of your life affects what comes next. So it is never too late and it is never hopeless.

Begin right now to stop all your negative comments and statements about how it has been, how it is or how it will be. Begin to listen to your words and thoughts – when you hear yourself starting a negative sentence, just have fun with it and play a little by stopping, smiling and saying to yourself “oh my, I am doing it again – how cool that I am so aware of my thinking and what I am saying. I bet this will be fun and easy to gently lean a bit in a way that feels better:

What things do I already like?

What things naturally feel good to me?

What things do I really enjoy?

What brings me pleasure?

How do I want this person to act?

How do I want this situation to play out?

What things would I prefer about this?

If I could have anything I desired, what would I get? How would I feel?”

Just continue asking yourself questions like these every now and then to begin shifting your predominant focus. It is not the big arguments you have or the big drepressive thoughts you think that ruin your life – it it the little seemingly insignificant DAILY thoughts you think that lead to more thoughts that are alike those, which leads to beliefs and more conversations that feel the same way, and more people that reflects more of how you feel back to you until your focus has grown enough that you begin to get manifestations around you and in your own body.

You change it at the root, the cause – your seemingly insignificant thoughts. And that is easier than you think! Just begin with the small thoughts you think right now. If you feel worried, angry, resentful, depressed, insecure… or happy, confident, in love, empowered, satisfied and eager, all comes down to the little thoughts you choose to think in your day to day experience. And you can do something about that even with nothing in your life changing!

You can feel insecure and resentful and have cellulite or you can feel happy and empowered and have cellulite. How you feel – unconditionally – is what attracts what comes next. It is the difference between seeing the solutions or not. Recovery or not.

You can live in a loveless marriage and feel hopeless or you can live in a loveless marriage and feel hopeful. How you feel is the key that will open you up to what comes next.

Have fun with this! Don’t make such a big hairy deal about anything – your life is for you. You are supposed to view and experience contrast so you know what you prefer and come to new conclusions. Just begin to put your focus on what you now know you prefer and stop holding yourself back. ❤

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My nightmare came back – I faced it this time and it had an awful ending

Ok so my nightmare came back- the same nightmare I have had over 30 years now. The scenery is always the same, there is something very evil and dangerous after me and my only way of protecting myself is to lock a door between me and the evil thing who wants to hurt and kill me – and the door is always impossible to lock. I do all the right things, I lock the door perfectly but it is always unlocked anyway. So scary.

This time I was in my grandmother’s old house, I was alone with my two little babies and it was really dark because it was in the middle of the night.

An evil man was out there trying to get to me and my babies. I did everything I could to quickly lock the door but of course it remained unlocked no matter how hard I tried to lock it. The man came seconds after I tried locking the door and I just held on to the door handle as hard as I could to keep the man from coming in but it was impossible because he was so strong and I was too weak. He forcefully opened the door immediately and I knew we were in deadly danger. My only thought was that I have to protect my little babies, no matter what.

This is where the dream turned worse because it usually ends there. Now I was forced outside in the dark night and the evil man started beating me up. He used his fists and he kicked me as hard as he could, I protected myself as strongly as I could but more evil men came to help him. It felt like such a losing battle but I never gave up, I kept protecting myself and my babies. Finally I managed to call the police, who didn’t even want to know where I was, they just said they would get there. The fight continued for what felt like an hour and suddenly the men changed their tactic when they realized the police might get there soon. They started cutting me with a knife and hurt themselves really badly with their own knife too just to make it look like I was the bad guy, like I was the one attacking them. It felt so sick!

Then the evil twist and evil ending came – an evil devil magician turned up. His face was hideous and his eyes were glowing green with pure evil. I don’t know why but he just turned up and smiled an evil smile at me as he saw how much the other men hit me, I cried out to him “can you help me with these men?” And I regretted asking it the second I said it. He smiled and said that he was happy I asked for his help. Then he touched the men and they turned into beautiful, perfect, good people – the evil man who had hit me the most and had been so filled with blood and wounds that he had inflicted himself with, he turned into a beautiful blond princess-looking good person. Immaculate. And the other men turned into perfect looking good-guys. Immaculate. Then the evil devil magician waved his magic at me and everything changed. I was completely naked, dirty, black hair, drunk and was sitting on a bed inside the house completely passed out. My babies were still outside, alone. Then the police came.

I was aware of everything that had happened all of a sudden, from a broader perspective like I had been watching a movie. And suddenly I was looking at the whole scenery like a movie, I was no longer the woman in the movie. I was me, watching this movie with my boyfriend and I remember saying how much I hated this movie, that the ending was so evil, so unfair and that Steven King must have directed this movie.

Then I woke up.

So weird. I guess the best part was that in the end it turned out to be just a movie.

Once a bad guy always a bad guy? No 🌹 – he has a good heart and a kind soul

Ok this evening something happened that made me think a little. My ex, the one I moved in with when I was 17 who hit me a lot and hurt me physically and mentally for 1 1/2 years before he went to prison for what he did to me, started following me on instagram tonight. It felt weird.

I blocked him on Facebook many years ago after he sent a friend request… and I have not thought that much about him since… until two days ago when we were in Jönköping. He walked passed us when we were out shopping in Jönköping. I never even thought he would look me up and follow me on instagram though.

As I told my boyfriend about this he got really upset and said it was not ok and that I should block him immediately. But I didnt at first. Somehow I feel like I am tired of running away from my past. This was a guy I fell in love with when I was 17. A guy I lived with for 1 1/2 years. A guy who I know has a good heart and a kind soul who has been through a lot of horrible things as a child. I don’t blame him at all for how things played out when I was with him… 18 years ago. I was a completely different person back then, I had no self-esteem and I was so incredibly insecure. Of course we were a perfect match back then and our insecurities and trauma brought out the worst in us. But I don’t blame him – the fault is mine just as well.

We had our experiences together and I feel nothing but appreciation for the lessons it taught me. I want peace. I want relief. I want to let go and lovingly move on. I want to say I am sorry for everything, I want to say thank you for the experiences and the lessons and the growth I have been gifted with since this time. Thank you and I wish you nothing but peace, love and happiness in all aspects of your life. 🌹

But, after giving it some thought I decided to block him anyway. He might have good intentions and all that but for me it feels like relief to not have him following me at all.

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