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Once a bad guy always a bad guy? No 🌹 – he has a good heart and a kind soul

Ok this evening something happened that made me think a little. My ex, the one I moved in with when I was 17 who hit me a lot and hurt me physically and mentally for 1 1/2 years before he went to prison for what he did to me, started following me on instagram tonight. It felt weird.

I blocked him on Facebook many years ago after he sent a friend request… and I have not thought that much about him since… until two days ago when we were in Jönköping. He walked passed us when we were out shopping in Jönköping. I never even thought he would look me up and follow me on instagram though.

As I told my boyfriend about this he got really upset and said it was not ok and that I should block him immediately. But I didnt at first. Somehow I feel like I am tired of running away from my past. This was a guy I fell in love with when I was 17. A guy I lived with for 1 1/2 years. A guy who I know has a good heart and a kind soul who has been through a lot of horrible things as a child. I don’t blame him at all for how things played out when I was with him… 18 years ago. I was a completely different person back then, I had no self-esteem and I was so incredibly insecure. Of course we were a perfect match back then and our insecurities and trauma brought out the worst in us. But I don’t blame him – the fault is mine just as well.

We had our experiences together and I feel nothing but appreciation for the lessons it taught me. I want peace. I want relief. I want to let go and lovingly move on. I want to say I am sorry for everything, I want to say thank you for the experiences and the lessons and the growth I have been gifted with since this time. Thank you and I wish you nothing but peace, love and happiness in all aspects of your life. 🌹

But, after giving it some thought I decided to block him anyway. He might have good intentions and all that but for me it feels like relief to not have him following me at all.

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“How do I feel better when everything sucks and I feel awful?!” ❤

“And so you say, “How do I do it?” You do it by saying

It’s alright. I’m just fine. All is well. There, there. Everything is alright. Perfect place. Perfect time. This is Who-I-Am. I was born to be here. I am on my path. This is the trajectory of Who-I-Am. I’m Pure Positive Energy. Everything is just right. I could not be doing it better. I’m following inspiration. I’m getting better at that all the time. Pure Positive Energy surrounds me. I am adored. This environment that surrounds me inspires me to more. I’m constantly achieving it. I never get it done. I can’t get it wrong. All is really well with me. I feel good so much of the time. Pure Positive Energy surrounds me. All is well. It’s alright. It’s alright. Everything is alright. I’m doing just fine. I’m doing really good. Source adores me. I feel the inspiration all the time. Ideas are flowing. I receive the ideas. I get inspiration. Sometimes I don’t feel like doing something. That’s inspiration too. Sometimes I want rest. That’s inspiration too. Sometimes there is more resistance than I can overcome. That’s alright. It will return. There’s an ebb and flow in all of this. Sometimes I have more resistance. I know it. I feel it. Sometimes I have less resistance. I know it. I feel it. Everything is working out just fine. I’ve put it in the Vortex. It is inevitable. My well-being is assured. I’m supposed to be having fun here. Life is supposed to be fun. My Inner Being is delighting in the life that I have carved out. It is time for me to delight in the life that I’ve carved out.”

In other words, it’s just talking to yourself like that. No specific terms. Just general terms.”

Abraham Hicks

Love NEVER hurts

Love does not hurt – insecurity does, sadness does, anxiety does, anger does, jealousy does… but LOVE only feels good.

When you feel love you feel utter bliss. You feel happy, free and empowered. Anything less than that is not love. Even if you blame the other person for how much you are hurting, it is blame, sadness and those other negative emotions you feel. Not love. Love only feels good.

You might temporarily be tuned out of the frequency of love – that is why it feels so bad, because you LOVE to love and you WANT to love. And when conditions turn up that makes it hard for you to feel love in your heart, of course it will feel bad! But the negative feeling is never caused by love. Ever.

There is an even better way to love someone than most people are practicing: to love unconditionally. If you can truly master this you will not be so easily swept off into jealousy, insecurity, anger, sadness or any other negative emotion you might be very used to fall back into. You will have a stable centre of love, you will see through the eyes of love and you will see value in every situation. Maybe not all the time, but you will easily get back into your place of love when you fall off. Most importantly – you will never blame any one else for how you feel – you will realize that how you feel is your job. Love is an inside job just like happiness. ❤

You are as beautiful, confident, free and empowered as you feel loved within ❤

Feel the relief in letting go of all disapproval and all approval. Just let it wash off. What is left is you, the magnificent being that you are and your own inner love and approval. That is all you need. Your own unconditional love and approval will nurture your mind, body and soul and you will blossom into the magical being that you are.

You are as beautiful, confident, free and empowered as you feel loved within. It all starts with your unconditional love.

When he doesn’t text you back – find your own love first!

Never let your happiness depend on someone else! Free yourself from the limiting bondage of needing anyone else’s attention in order for you to feel good. You are enough on your own. You are beautiful, smart, loved unconditionally and worthy of all things you desire!!!

Find your own stability first, find your own love and happiness first and then let the interactions you have with others enhance how good you already feel. ❤

Never give up my dear ❤

No matter what you have been through or how bad you feel – you can improve your life and feel good again. It all begins with you and your thoughts. This is where you make the change – the circumstances might be far from how you want them to be but it does not matter. It has to be an emotional journey first, then you will view everything in a new light.

All those difficulties can actually inspire you to now become stronger, more confident, more happy, more free and more empowered. There is value in everything but it all begins with you and the thoughts you choose. Your perspective is what makes all the difference. ❤

” The strongest people are not those who show strength in front of us, but those who win battles we know nothing about.”

Your acne and your cellulite does not make you any less beautiful! 🌹

I see who you are. I see who you are beyond the external things, beyond your clothes, beyond your makeup, beyond your body.

You are beautiful. You are so loved and adored for who you really are. There is no need to feel sad, ashamed, blameful, jealous or to wish you looked more like this or that. You are beautiful, right here and right now.

It is time for you to once and for all make peace with your body, make peace with your face, make peace with your skin, make peace with your personality and your emotions. Make peace with it all, look beyond all of it and see who you really are. Reach for the unconditional love that flows to you endlessly and eternally.

You are my wolf ❤

I am in love with all your mistakes, all your failure and all your flaws. I am passionately in love with your anger, your jealousy, your rage and your frustration.

I am in love with all of you. There are no “bad” parts or “good” parts – everything about you is magical, magnificent and beautiful.

Be the version of you that you desire to be ❤

Choose what kind of person you want to be. Focus on the emotions you want to feel and the personality traits you desire. Feel it, radiate it, be it. ❤

You are the only one in charge of your life. You are the only one in charge of who you are. Choose with love in your heart. All things are possible, it is never too late – you can begin now to be the version of you, you desire to be. ❤

A delicious relationship

It all starts with you. If you want to have a delicious, fullfilling relationship with someone else – you have to begin loving yourself, unconditionally. How you feel about yourself will be reflected back to you in every relationship you have, in every interaction. 

The better you feel about yourself, the more confident, happy, free and empowered you feel ON YOUR OWN, the better your relationships will feel aswell. When you have found that strong stable balance within yourself, you are not dependant on others in order to feel good and you don’t blame them when you feel bad. You know your worth wether they know your worth or not. That is empowerment, that is freedom and that is where loving, fullfilling relationships are born. When you come together with that stability within, the relationship enhances how good you already feel. That is a delicious relationship.

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