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Why would such a beautiful girl like me hate myself for over 30 years and have no self-esteem? Here is why:

I got such a brilliant question today and here is my answer:

I grew up with an alcoholic father and my parents mentally abused me. I was sexually abused when I was 6 years old by 3 older guys, I was bullied in school, had reading and writing difficulties, had no friends, developed anorexia (an eating disorder) when I was 9 years old, had no friends during my entire school years, was raped by two guys when I was 17, ran away from home two weeks after that because my father’s alcohol abuse was insane and my parents were so verbally mean to me, I ran straight into the arms of a guy who physically and mentally abused me for over two years until he was sentenced to prison for it. During this time my mother died. I had to go through the two trials all alone – I had no one. I was completely alone, no friends and no one in the world that I could talk to. I did not want to live anymore – I even tried to take my own life. Then my father died, I got pregnant and had to make an abortion…and the man of my dreams cheated on me and lied about it for over a year until the truth came out in the most painful way ever… somewhere there, around the age of 24, I decided that enough is enough and I chose to change my thinking. I started working on liking myself. I did it all by myself – I never told ANYONE about any of these things that happened to me in my childhood/teenage years. It was not until I was almost 30 years old I began talking about it.

So, I guess this answers your question on why such a beautiful girl like me, hated myself for almost 30 years and had absolutely no self-esteem 🤣❤

How you FEEL has nothing to do with the way you look. I had my desired, dream body, but I hated myself and had no self-esteem for almost 30 years. Beauty does not mean confidence. You cant see how you feel, it is 100% about your own thinking – and you CAN do something about that. If I could, all by myself, anyone can. 🌹❤

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Even tragic events, like the deaths of loved ones, are of value ❤

My parents died a long time ago – it feels like it was in another life time – I am now stronger than ever and the most happiest I have ever been in my life. I see their death as something that inspired me to finally find my own balance and stability in life. It totally changed me – and I chose to let it change me for the better, eventually.

Everything happens for a reason, and everything can be of value – everything. It may not seem like it as it happens but if you allow yourself some time to find emotional relief, then you can slowly begin to see that this experience has brought you a gift – a gift that is very valuable. The gift of finding your emotional balance, unconditionally. Of feeling good, unconditionally. Of feeling love, unconditionally.

Even seemingly tragic events are of value and can make you stronger, more joyful, more loving, more empowered and can make you realise what a beautiful gift life.

Make the most of your life, your year, your month, your day, your hour, your moment. Be kinder to yourself and deliberately choose to enjoy life in ways that call you.

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