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Always the same nightmare – what does it mean?

All my life I have had the same nightmare. Ever since I was a little girl. The place might be different, the danger might be different but the scenario is always the same. Something bad (which I have never seen) is after me and wants to hurt and kill me. My only escape is to lock a door between me and the bad thing that is coming. But it is impossible to lock the door, always. I do all the technical things just right – I lock the door in the perfect way you are supposed to. But as I check the door to see if it is locked – it never is. It always remains unlocked no matter what I do.

I had this nightmare again last night. This time I had bought a new house but the back door did not have a lock at all and the bathroom door was impossible to lock. Just like always. I wonder what this means? I have had these same nightmares for over 30 years now – for as long as I can remember.

I guess it goes back to all the worry and fear I had as a child. All the nights when I could not fall asleep because I was so afraid that my father (who was an alcoholic and walked in his sleep a lot) would try to get into my room. It was really scary to wake up and hear someone’s hands and fingers against my door – feeling for the handle – and then hear the handle slowly being pulled down and hear someone enter. I was usually so petrified I could not even make a sound, totally frozen.

It was not until I was a teenager that I got a key to my own door. But still, he would still walk in his sleep and I could still hear him trying to enter. It seems logical all these night mares come from these experiences. I only wish they would end. 💖

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How to move on from these unwanted experiences and feel good again ❤🌱

You feel the way you do because you think the way you do – and you can do something about that!

You are never limited by your past, present or future experiences – the only thing that limits you is your own thinking about your past, present and future experiences – and you can do something about that!

Realise the amazing potential to feel good that you have – right now. No matter what you have been through or what you are going through. You can’t change the past but you can change how you view it, and that will make all the difference.

There is value and benefit with everything that happens – everything can inspire you to focus more clearly on what you now know you desire and prefer as a result of this experience. How do you WANT to FEEL? Who do you WANT to BE? What do you WANT to DO?

The potential for happiness is within you, always. It truly is an inside job. Sure, it is easier to feel good when everything goes your way but there is no skill in just looking around and reaching to what happens! True skill, true freedom and true empowerment is when things are not going the way you want them to and you choose to focus on the value, you choose to be selective in your focus and you choose to let all these unwanted things inspire you to now focus more on what you now know you desire and prefer instead. That takes skill and that is the answer to how you move on and find value in everything.

Never give up! It is never too late, there is always hope ❤

Today I did it. I told the story of my life – about all the difficulties I have been through and how I turned my life around – for a room full of co-workers. I was so nervous I was shaking as I began, but I managed brilliantly to tell the whole story without crying.

This is the first time I have told my whole story to more than just one or two people at the same time. Afterwards I felt so much relief. To finally be able to speak up for myself, to tell my story and share these dark moments that I have kept hidden within for over three decades now. So powerful.

Never give up. No matter what you have been through in your life or how difficult it might seem at the moment, you can feel good again because you can improve your thinking and therefore you can improve every aspect of your life. ❤

Wake up, live life intentionally – like you love yourself!

I will be silenced no more. No more hiding the truth in order to protect my abusers. I left my insecurities a long time ago, I will never go back.

I will be silenced no more. No more protecting my abusers in order to sooth them. No more. I left all guilt and blame a long time ago.

I will be silenced no more. I will never again blame myself when someone tries to hurt me – I left my self-doubt and self-hatred a long time ago.

I will rise from the ashes, more free, more empowered, more confident, more at peace, more loving, more beautiful and stronger than ever before.

I will no longer bleed in silence. I will no longer cry in silence. I embrace all that I am – past, present and future – with love. I am ready. ❤

It has been 16 years since my mother died and 10 years since my father died ❤

It just struck me that in September this year it has been 16 years since my mother died. And it has been 10 years since my father died. It feels like another lifetime.

I still miss them and I love them more now than ever before. ❤

I got an exciting assignment at work 😊

Today I went back to work again, and one of my bosses asked me to do something really exciting: She wanted me to talk to all her teachers at a meeting next week. She wanted me to tell them my story, what I have been through and how I managed to turn my entire life around. How cool!

I really look forward to this! I feel so blessed to have such caring bosses that really value me and my talents. I feel so appreciated. 💖

Let all your past experiences fuel your inner desire

You are under no obligation to be the same person you were 10 years ago, 1 year ago, 1 month ago, 1 week ago or even 1 day ago.

Who you are is based on the thoughts you choose to think now. You can always begin to choose other thoughts that more accurately reflect who you want to be, now.

Your past is over and done with and need not affect you negatively at all. You can choose to let all your past experiences fuel your inner desire and let it inspire you to focus more clearly on who you now know you want to be and what you now know you want to experience. ❤

2 500 followers and 550 000 views on my blog 😍

My purpose with my blog is to share what I did to turn my life around. This is where I share my thoughts and my beliefs – all the things I wish someone had told me before all my difficulties began. ❤ I want you to know that no matter what you have been through in your life or how difficult it might seem at the moment, you CAN improve your thinking and therfore improve your entire life.

❤ Thank you all for liking, commenting and sharing my posts. ❤ It feels so good to write and post here, this is my safe haven, and it feels even better that so many of you feel inspired by my posts. 🌹🌹🌹

Never give up my dear ❤

No matter what you have been through or how bad you feel – you can improve your life and feel good again. It all begins with you and your thoughts. This is where you make the change – the circumstances might be far from how you want them to be but it does not matter. It has to be an emotional journey first, then you will view everything in a new light.

All those difficulties can actually inspire you to now become stronger, more confident, more happy, more free and more empowered. There is value in everything but it all begins with you and the thoughts you choose. Your perspective is what makes all the difference. ❤

” The strongest people are not those who show strength in front of us, but those who win battles we know nothing about.”

1900 followers and 527 550 views ❤❤❤

My blog is my safe haven. This is where I share not only my joy, my passion and my desires but also where I share what works for me and how I transformed my life.

I have been sexually abused multiple times, physically abused, mentally abused, had an alcoholic father, I had eating disorders, been bullied, my mother died when I was 18 and my father died when I was 24 years old… I hated myself for almost 3 decades and had no self-esteem… but managed to save myself by changing my thinking. Little by little, step by step. All by myself.

And I succeeded. I have a very strong self-esteem and I have manifested so many things around me that I love. My life continues to improve all the time. I have two babies that I love and adore, a job I love, a cozy big house, a nice car, the body of my dreams… but all those things are just bonuses. The really important thing is that I feel so much better. I no longer have the victim mentality but an empowered way of viewing life. I am not always on top emotionally – it is a never ending journey – but most of the time I feel really good. This blog is where I share what works for me and what I believe.

My blog now has more than 1900 followers and has had over 527 550 views. This is incredible. Thank you all for the love and appreciation you give me everyday. I truly value you all. I am so happy that you are with me and that you enjoy my blog, it means a lot to me. Thank you.

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