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Because of all the pain and suffering – you can become the most confident, beautiful, happy and empowered person ever🌹

It doesn’t matter what you have been through or how difficult your life might seem at the moment – you can let all of it inspire you to now become more confident, beautiful, happy, loving and empowered.

Easily said but is it really true? Is it possible? Of course it is! All it takes is a very, very small desire within you to feel better. That is all. If you have that wanting, no matter how slight, then you can do it. No matter what. It doesn’t matter if you have spent your entire life hating yourself and feeling like a powerless victim – you can become the most confident, blissful, beautiful and empowered person, now.

I grew up with an alcoholic father and my parents mentally abused me all through my childhood until they died – whether they ment to or not. I was sexually abused by three older boys when I was around 6 years old. I was bullied in school, I had reading and writing difficulties, I got anorexia when I was 9 years old, I was raped by two boys when I was 17. I ran away from home a few weeks after that, straight into the arms of an older guy who also had an alcohol addiction and who abused me physically and mentally for almost two years before there was a trial and he went to prison. During that time my mother died. I had no self-esteem what so ever and I absolutely hated myself, I felt like a powerless victim and even wanted to end my life. Then I got pregnant and had to make an abortion, the love of my life cheated on me and then my father died. 🀣

Somewhere around that time – when I was 24 years old – I decided that enough is enough and I felt that I wanted to feel better about myself. So, I began improving my thinking about myself and everything else and little by little I blossomed into the most confident, happy and empowered woman I had always desired to me. As a bonus, I got a job I adored and still work at, got the boyfriend I desired, got huge pay raises, got pregnant twice and had my two little babies… but all of those things are just great bonuses – the most important thing is: I feel good about myself. If I could do it, anyone can. ❀

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🌟 Let the negative experiences and hurtful people give you your power back πŸŒŸ

The nightmare again, but some progress

Last night I had my usual nightmare – the same one I have had since I was a little baby. I am back at my childhood house, something very evil is coming after me to hurt and kill me. I am all alone, it is dark outside and my only escape is to lock myself in, in a room. But as usual all doors are open and unlockable so I cannot escape. The intense fear is the same, the scenario is exactly the same but now there is one big change that I have never experienced in my nightmare before: I consciously think, “Alright I already know all the doors are unlockable so I am not even going to try to lock them. However, I will open the door when it comes and I will kill it.” I look around for a weapon of some sort and prepare myself for the moment… then I wake up.

This is huge progress because over these 30 something years that I have had this nightmare I have always felt the fear and panic and put all my energy on trying to lock these unlockable doors, in vain. This is the first time I decided to do something more productive. It felt like I kind of made the best of the situation, accepted it for what it was and decided to make the best of it – do something that I could do. Even if the evil thing never reached me, I still feel a shift within this nightmare. I kind of look forward to next time, I will continue to do what I CAN do to face this and protect myself, no more trying to lock unlockable doors.

Let your past serve its purpose – make peace with it and move on!

This is so beautiful because we are always evolving into more and more deliciousness.

Everything is of value! Everything can inspire you to grow and become more of all those things you desire to be.

Let the past serve its purpose – make peace with it and eagerly move on.

Let each new moment bring value and benefit to all that you are β€

If you want to feel better, if you want to feel confident, happy, in love, empowered and free… then you have to do something about that.

You are always in charge of how you feel, not circumstances or other people – only you. You are the one who chooses how to view everything, and your perspective is what makes you feel the way you do. You can do something about your perspective.

Your life is your journey and everything that has happened to you can be of value to you if you let it.

Let each new moment bring value and benefit to all that you are, let all your experiences make you even more clear about who you want to be and what you want to experience. Start looking for value in everything and everyone, and begin with yourself. ❀

🌸 You can do this, don’t give up πŸŒΈ

How to move on from your past mistakes β€

Make peace with your past. No matter what you did, you did the best you could from the place of awareness, knowledge and the emotional state you were in. That was then, this is now.

Let your past serve you by letting it inspire you to now focus more clearly on who you want to be, how you want to feel and how you want to act.

Everything that happens can be of beautiful value to you if you only let it. It is only a matter of perspective – and you are 100% in charge of your perspective. ❀

3 generations – 1985

This is a picture of me, almost 2 years old, my mother who was 39 years old at the time and my grandmother who had just turned 80 years old. Three generations together. I love how happy I look, I will remember this smiling baby girl ❀.

When I look at my mother I feel nothing but love and appreciation for her. I wish I could tell her and my father how much I love them and how much I value them. But I believe they felt how much I truly love them the second they passed away. Even though it has almost been two dacades since my mother died I feel closer than ever to her now. Same goes for my father who died a decade ago. ❀

Always the same nightmare – what does it mean?

All my life I have had the same nightmare. Ever since I was a little girl. The place might be different, the danger might be different but the scenario is always the same. Something bad (which I have never seen) is after me and wants to hurt and kill me. My only escape is to lock a door between me and the bad thing that is coming. But it is impossible to lock the door, always. I do all the technical things just right – I lock the door in the perfect way you are supposed to. But as I check the door to see if it is locked – it never is. It always remains unlocked no matter what I do.

I had this nightmare again last night. This time I had bought a new house but the back door did not have a lock at all and the bathroom door was impossible to lock. Just like always. I wonder what this means? I have had these same nightmares for over 30 years now – for as long as I can remember.

I guess it goes back to all the worry and fear I had as a child. All the nights when I could not fall asleep because I was so afraid that my father (who was an alcoholic and walked in his sleep a lot) would try to get into my room. It was really scary to wake up and hear someone’s hands and fingers against my door – feeling for the handle – and then hear the handle slowly being pulled down and hear someone enter. I was usually so petrified I could not even make a sound, totally frozen.

It was not until I was a teenager that I got a key to my own door. But still, he would still walk in his sleep and I could still hear him trying to enter. It seems logical all these night mares come from these experiences. I only wish they would end. πŸ’–

How to move on from these unwanted experiences and feel good again β€πŸŒ±

You feel the way you do because you think the way you do – and you can do something about that!

You are never limited by your past, present or future experiences – the only thing that limits you is your own thinking about your past, present and future experiences – and you can do something about that!

Realise the amazing potential to feel good that you have – right now. No matter what you have been through or what you are going through. You can’t change the past but you can change how you view it, and that will make all the difference.

There is value and benefit with everything that happens – everything can inspire you to focus more clearly on what you now know you desire and prefer as a result of this experience. How do you WANT to FEEL? Who do you WANT to BE? What do you WANT to DO?

The potential for happiness is within you, always. It truly is an inside job. Sure, it is easier to feel good when everything goes your way but there is no skill in just looking around and reaching to what happens! True skill, true freedom and true empowerment is when things are not going the way you want them to and you choose to focus on the value, you choose to be selective in your focus and you choose to let all these unwanted things inspire you to now focus more on what you now know you desire and prefer instead. That takes skill and that is the answer to how you move on and find value in everything.

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