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Why would such a beautiful girl like me hate myself for over 30 years and have no self-esteem? Here is why:

I got such a brilliant question today and here is my answer:

I grew up with an alcoholic father and my parents mentally abused me. I was sexually abused when I was 6 years old by 3 older guys, I was bullied in school, had reading and writing difficulties, had no friends, developed anorexia (an eating disorder) when I was 9 years old, had no friends during my entire school years, was raped by two guys when I was 17, ran away from home two weeks after that because my father’s alcohol abuse was insane and my parents were so verbally mean to me, I ran straight into the arms of a guy who physically and mentally abused me for over two years until he was sentenced to prison for it. During this time my mother died. I had to go through the two trials all alone – I had no one. I was completely alone, no friends and no one in the world that I could talk to. I did not want to live anymore – I even tried to take my own life. Then my father died, I got pregnant and had to make an abortion…and the man of my dreams cheated on me and lied about it for over a year until the truth came out in the most painful way ever… somewhere there, around the age of 24, I decided that enough is enough and I chose to change my thinking. I started working on liking myself. I did it all by myself – I never told ANYONE about any of these things that happened to me in my childhood/teenage years. It was not until I was almost 30 years old I began talking about it.

So, I guess this answers your question on why such a beautiful girl like me, hated myself for almost 30 years and had absolutely no self-esteem 🤣❤

How you FEEL has nothing to do with the way you look. I had my desired, dream body, but I hated myself and had no self-esteem for almost 30 years. Beauty does not mean confidence. You cant see how you feel, it is 100% about your own thinking – and you CAN do something about that. If I could, all by myself, anyone can. 🌹❤

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It has been 16 years since my mother died and 10 years since my father died ❤

It just struck me that in September this year it has been 16 years since my mother died. And it has been 10 years since my father died. It feels like another lifetime.

I still miss them and I love them more now than ever before. ❤

What brought her back from the brink of death:

It is the answer to every problem and every challenge you are faced with ❤

Especially when you are going through a lot of difficulties. Maybe you have made some mistakes or you have some health issues – now is the time to be extra kind and loving towards yourself.

Show yourself unconditional love no matter what is going on around you and no matter what is going on with your own body. You could be far from the body you desire, your skin could be freaking out all over your face, you could be far from the beauty you want to experience – it does not matter. LOVE is the answer to every problem and every difficuly. Choose to look at yourself and everything else through eyes of love. Look for things you like in everyone – including yourself.

Beauty, happiness, satisfaction in life… it all starts with love, and it shines from within. Let your love radiate stronger and stronger with each passing day. Make every day a day to fall deeper in love with yourself and all of life. This is your life, you were created to be exactly as you are – and you are magnificent – of course you are loved and adored by all that is! It is time for you to embrace this love and allow yourself to feel it.❤❤❤

All that matters in life – love, laugh and shine your light brightly ❤

Even tragic events, like the deaths of loved ones, are of value ❤

My parents died a long time ago – it feels like it was in another life time – I am now stronger than ever and the most happiest I have ever been in my life. I see their death as something that inspired me to finally find my own balance and stability in life. It totally changed me – and I chose to let it change me for the better, eventually.

Everything happens for a reason, and everything can be of value – everything. It may not seem like it as it happens but if you allow yourself some time to find emotional relief, then you can slowly begin to see that this experience has brought you a gift – a gift that is very valuable. The gift of finding your emotional balance, unconditionally. Of feeling good, unconditionally. Of feeling love, unconditionally.

Even seemingly tragic events are of value and can make you stronger, more joyful, more loving, more empowered and can make you realise what a beautiful gift life.

Make the most of your life, your year, your month, your day, your hour, your moment. Be kinder to yourself and deliberately choose to enjoy life in ways that call you.

More healing than anything else ❤

This woman is one of the most inspiring women I have ever heard about. Have you read her story in her first book – “Dying to be me“? If not I highly recomend it. When I read it I felt such relief about death, cancer, deadly diseases and all other topics relative to life, health and healing. You have all the power you will ever need, within. Death is not to be feared – it is not the end! ❤

Unwanted experiences – experiences that strenghten you

Everything we go through has the potential of making us stronger, happier and more empowered if we choose to let it. No matter what has happened. ❤

You are never a helpless victim with no choice. You always have the choice of how you look at what happened, and that will make all the difference in your life from now on. Sexual abuse? Mental abuse? Physical abuse? Bullying? Heart break? Deadly diseases? Eating disorders? You name it. It doesn’t matter how seemingly small or big the issue might be, you can always choose your perspective of the experience, you can always lovingly support yourself and sooth yourself into relief. Little by little you can turn your entire thinking around – and therfore your emotions around – and that is when magic starts to happen. ❤

You can go through what ever it is you are going through while feeling fear or you can go through it feeling a hopeful. It is a very different perspective and it will improve not only how you feel about yourself, the experience and your life – it will also improve every aspect of your life. Attitude and how you feel matters more than anything.

Love yourself, as you are – right now ❤



The little daily thoughts impact everything that happens to you

“If you get a diagnosis that is not what you want to hear, the tendency is to say, 

“Oh, my God! How did I get so far away from something I want so much?”

And we say, it isn’t big like that at all – It’s just a series of little things.

It is the, “I could choose this thought which feels good, or this thought which doesn’t feel so good. But I’ve developed a pattern for what doesn’t feel good.

And so, it is the daily dose of not being in the receiving mode that keeps me not in the receiving mode.”

And that’s all that it is!”

Abraham Hicks 

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