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The fear I felt froze every inch of my body, but you didn’t even hesitate

I cared about you and yet you took my kindness and my trust and shattered it into millions of pieces.

Your arms and hands were so strong, I didn’t have a chance. The pain and all the bruises you left on my body were nothing compared to the utter powerlessness I felt when tried to pull your hands away from my body, when I looked into your eyes and I begged you to stop, when I said no and you just put your cold hand firmly over my mouth… Then you did exactly what I feared you would do.

My body froze and my heart was beating so loud. The fear I felt froze every inch of my body. But you didn’t even hesitate.

I can forgive everything and I don’t want to hurt you back – I just want to get away from that suffocating powerless feeling that haunts me every second of every fucking moment of every fucking day. The feeling that no matter how much I tried to get you to stop, you didn’t. You crushed my most sacred boundary.

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I will hold your hand through the darkness

Come to me, I will hold your hand through the darkness. I know there will be stars to light up your path.

You don’t have to dry your tears or hide your pain. Come as you are, feel as you feel. Even in you weakest of moments your heart and soul radiate love, kindness and an ever increasing strenght. I can see through all the pain, all the hurt and all shattered dreams and what I see is beautiful. 🌹

My shining light of hope in the darkest of nights πŸ™

When I look into your eyes I see the dark, cold pain that you have felt and yet I see this bright light of hope in the far distance.

I admire your strenght, your resiliance and your kindness that keeps blossoming time after time again no matter how many times your branches were broken.

You stand tall, grounded, waiting patiently for the storm to pass. You are my shining light of hope in the darkest of nights. πŸ™

No matter how hopeless and hard it might seem – you can feel better again and you can enjoy all those things your heart, mind and soul secretly desire

Because of your dissatisfaction, your passionate desire for more is so intense

Because of your sadness, your longing for comfort, joy and lust burns brighter

Because of the mistakes, your future shines brighter with all things you desire

No matter what happened, no matter how hopeless and hard it might seem – you can feel better again and you can enjoy all those things your heart, mind and soul secretly desire.

An insatiable longing for comfort

My lonely heart is burning painfully with an insatiable longing for comfort. Only you and your touch can calm my restless soul.

Will your heart need a life time to heal? Then so be it πŸ™

Let it take the time it needs. Some hearts heal quickly, others need a life time to heal. Be kind to yourself every step of the way.

Don’t listen to the crowd, listen to your heart. How do you feel? Honor your feelings by acknowledging them, approving of them and allowing them.

There is no shame, no guilt and no blame. Just acceptance, kindness and love. πŸ™ Be your own best friend and support yourself no matter what happens.

This pain cuts through my heart like a blinding flash of lightning

Let me wallow in my sadness,

Let me get lost in my despair

All this pain that cuts through my heart like a blinding flash of lightning,

All this havoc in my mind like a twirling tornado

And yet faith shines eternally within me and I know that when the raging storm passes, my ocean will be calm again

When sadness fills your heart with darkness πŸ™

Just go slower. It is ok. This too shall pass. Sooth yourself in any way you can. When sadness fills your heart with darkness, keep breathing and new life will clear the darkness away. πŸ™

I no longer fear those awful Friday feelings – I embrace my insecurities

It is Thursday evening and I am already feeling uneasy about tomorrow. It is so silly really, I know no one will hurt me again, yet I get so uneasy simply because it is a Friday. My co-workers all leave early so after 12 o’clock I am the only teacher left in our hallway, as always.

I don’t know how to get passed these uneasy Friday feelings, other than just accepting them. I feel uneasy, worried and anxious about beeing at work tomorrow – and that is ok. I will no longer try to distract myself or ignore my feelings, I will do as I did last Friday: I will embrace my insecurities. I choose to feel these uneasy emotions and go to work, anyway. I will have my lessons, I will help my students and I will get through the 6 hours I have to be in the school building.

Then I will go home and later I will meet a friend in JΓΆnkΓΆping. It is going to be a nice Friday. πŸ™

  • Do you have something that makes you uneasy? Can you think of a way to help yourself embrace how you feel and get through it?

In the midst of despair – know that this too shall pass

There are days when I shatter into millions of pieces, days when I cannot find hope. But, even in the midst of despair I know that this too shall pass. Night will come, and my body, mind and soul will get some rest.

Even the worst of days will come to an end. No matter how bad I have felt during my day – when darkness falls outside and everything is quiet, I find some relief.

Tomorrow is a new day, a new opportunity to be kinder to myself and be more selective in my focus. πŸ™

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