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The one thing that hurt me the most and ripped me apart â¤

It was not the sexual abuse, it was not the physical abuse, it was not the mental abuse, it was not the eating disorders, it was not the bullying, it was not the loneliness, it was not my alcoholic parents, it was not the deaths of my parents… or any of the other things that happened to me.

I was the one who let the opinions of others affect my opinion of me, which ripped me apart.

And I was the one who decided to start liking myself again.

No matter what – YOU – have all the power you will ever need within. ❤

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1800 followers!!! 💖🎉

Thank you, my dear readers! I just saw that 1800 people are following my blog and that I have over half a million views! This is awesome.

I am so passionate about sharing what works for me and how I turned my entire life around. It is such a beautiful bonus to see that so many people enjoy reading my posts as well. Thank you. 💖

What do you say to yourself?

Listen to what you tell yourself. Most people are really cruel to themselves without even thinking about it. However, they would never say such cruel things to someone else they care about!

A good way to start changing this is to find a picture of yourself as a little boy/ little girl. Look into the eyes of this little one – what would you want to tell yourself?

Here is a picture of me as a little girl.

I would like to tell her that she is so loved and so adored. That it doesnt matter what others say to you or what they do – not even what your parents say or do – you are wonderful and loved unconditionally.

I would tell her to follow her bliss, to care about how she feels and seek ways to feel better. You don’t need others approval to feel good about yourself. Never let the disapproval of others bring you down – how they feel about you is all about them and their perspective.

Continue to be the happy, energetic, passionate and unique girl you truly are. You are cute, you are loving, you are caring and you are so valuable.

Life will always continue to get better for you, no matter how it temporarily might look. ❤

How do you deal with your panic attacks and your anxiety?

Ever since I was a little girl I have had flashes of panic attacks and days filled with anxiety, sometimes several days in a row, every week. 

When I grew up I had no idea how to handle these awful, intense feelings and it resulted in a lot of anger and depression. Back then I also felt like a powerless victim to everything that happened to me… my alcoholic father, the bullying, my eating disorders, the sexual abuse, the physical abuse, the death of my parents… everything just added to my panic attacks and my anxiety.

It was not until I was 24 years old that I – completely on my own – began improving how I felt about myself and how I handled my mood swings. Little by little I began liking myself and I developed a strong, beautiful self esteem. 

From that point on everything in my life improved as well. I got a job I loved, met an amazing man and my self-esteem continued to grow stronger and stronger. It took time but I managed to go from feeling like a powerless victim to feeling like an empowered woman.

However, my panic attacks and my anxiety is still with me every week. Even though I have the body of my dreams, two little babies, a job I love and an amazing boyfriend… I am, however, better at soothing myself once I get hit with theses awful emotions, and I am an expert at hiding how I feel at work and so on… but the feelings are still as intense as when I was a little girl. 

Some days, like today, I feel no desire to continue living. It is so strange because the feelings are so intense and so real… but tomorrow they might be gone again. That gives me some relief, to know that this too shall pass. Until it passes I treat myself to a lot of delicious food and play a lot with my cute little babies.

How do you handle your panic attacks and your anxiety?

Fit mother of two ðŸ‘

After having spent almost 3 decades hating myself and having no self-esteem what so ever, this feels like a breath of fresh air. I am loving my fit body! 

It feels so good to enjoy being who I choose to be. Finally I am in a point in my life where I like myself, my personality and everything about me. Such a freeing feeling. 

You are doing the best you can – don’t give up â¤

A letter to myself as a little girl â¤

“I want you to know that you are so loved! I love you more and more each second and I love you for being exactly as you are! You don’t have to change yourself in order to please your parents or anyone else! Just continue to enjoy the things you love and keep being imaginative, energetic and confident. 

The hurtful words from your parents, your teachers and your classmates are more about the pain THEY are feeling than about you. Brush it all off and continue to find new ways of caring about yourself.

All those scary things that you have seen and been through will only make you stronger and more confident – you can be as successful as you desire to no matter what those around you say.

Please don’t give up on yourself, eventhough it might feel difficult right now – know that I love you unconditionally and eternaly. I am proud of everything that you are. I love everything about you. You are kind, you are loving, you are cute, you are clever and you have within you all the answers to all the questions you might ever encounter.

Keep smiling, keep your heart light and happy. Follow your bliss and know that your life will always get better and better no matter how it might temporarily look.”

Lots of love from myself, Ann-Christin Svärd, many years later.

Sexual abuse, physical abuse and mental abuse – will it ever heal?

We are all unique and every person experiences life in a unique way. I only speak what I know works for me.

Without going into too much specifics I can say that I have been through a lot of things in my life. Things that brought me to the point where I hated myself, had no self-esteem and even tried to take my own life. I had a difficult childhood with an alcoholic parent. I have been bullied, been sexually abused multiple times, physically abused, had anorexia, ran away from home when I was 17 and ended up in an abusive relationship. My mother died when I was 18 years old and my father died a few years after that, I went through an abortion and much more…

The only way I found to ease my emotional pain when I was a child was by eating delicious food. It worked wonderful, for a moment. But of course the feeling didn’t last because I used external things to make myself feel better. Back then I had no idea that I could improve my own thinking and by that affect how I was feeling. I felt like a powerless victim to all these bad experiences and my hatred for myself continued to get stronger through the years.

It was not until I was 24 years old that I decided I had to do something to improve how I was feeling – and that was when I found out about the authour Louise Hay and started reading her book “You can heal your life”. That was when my changes began. I began to improve my thinking and the effect of my changes were instant. Everything in my life began improving to reflect that positive mental change I was making. I started reading and listening to the teachings of Abraham Hicks and the law of attraction and continued improving my thinking. Within a few years I had changed my entire beliefsystem.

I went from no self-esteem to total self-empowerment, and I did it all by myself. Everything in my life improved as I improved my thinking. I got my dream job, I met the man of my dreams, I could eat what ever I desired and have the body I desired, I got pregnant and easily gave birth to my two little babies who are now 1 years old and 3 years old. We bought a beautiful big house, a sporty car and I got huge payraises at work… but the most important thing was that I felt good! 

This is a wonderful journey of transformation to take and my journey is far from over. It is an endless journey and life will continue to get better and better if you allow it. 

So, to answer the question above – will it ever heal? Yes and no. If you work on improving your thinking, then yes. If you don’t do anything to improve your thinking, then no. You have to find your own ways to improve your thinking, and you have to be gentle with yourself every step of the way. Do I always feel good? No. I still return to some old negative thoughts from time to time and when I do it feels breathtakingly awful. Sometimes it lasts only a day, sometimes more. But now I know what to do, and I know it is only temporary. No matter what you have been through in your life, you CAN improve your life and become the person you want to be. It is never too late, you can begin again, right now. I am here with you, we are all in this together. ♡

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