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Sexually abused, raped, bullied… can you ever feel good again? Of course!!!

My father was an alcoholic, I was sexually abused by several older boys when I was 6 years old, I was bullied in school, had reading and writing difficulties, got anorexia when I was around 8-9 years old, was raped by two guys when I was 17, ran away from home two weeks after that, was physically and mentally abused for almost two years by my boyfriend (when I was 17-19 years old) and had to go to trial twice before he ended up in jail, my parents died, I had an abortion and the man of my dreams cheated on me. 😂 need I go on?

I hated myself and life for almost 30 years before I began improving my thinking about me, about everyone that had ever hurt me and about life. I managed to turn my thinking around and today I feel nothing but appreciation for everyone that ever hurt me and everything that happened to me – because it all inspired me to become the woman I am today. Strong, free, happy, confident and empowered. If I can do it, anyone can.

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They are not victims!

It can feel really hard to see a loved one go through difficulties. Especially if they withdraw and don´t want to change. But you have to remind yourself that they have equal access to source as everyone else on the planet, and they have equal access to the ever present guidance that flows from within – all they have to do is want to feel better and they will begin to hear it.

You cannot make them change their mind, that is not your job. You cannot arrange everything around them in pleasing ways so that they will feel better – feeling better has to come from within, otherwise they grow dependent on seeing pleasing things around them and will not have a stable emotional balance to stand on when bad things happen.

It is not your job to make them feel better, however, you can be of immense value to them by teaching by your example! Be the stable, loving, good-feeling, shining light of unconditional happiness that you truly are and see them as the free and empowered being you know they really are. They are not victims! They are strong, capable, free and empowered beings who have temporarily lost their emotional balance because of the way they have been thinking and focusing. But they CAN do something about that! And when they begin to realize that, they will begin to get their sense of freedom and empowerment back.

Why would such a beautiful girl like me hate myself for over 30 years and have no self-esteem? Here is why:

I got such a brilliant question today and here is my answer:

I grew up with an alcoholic father and my parents mentally abused me. I was sexually abused when I was 6 years old by 3 older guys, I was bullied in school, had reading and writing difficulties, had no friends, developed anorexia (an eating disorder) when I was 9 years old, had no friends during my entire school years, was raped by two guys when I was 17, ran away from home two weeks after that because my father’s alcohol abuse was insane and my parents were so verbally mean to me, I ran straight into the arms of a guy who physically and mentally abused me for over two years until he was sentenced to prison for it. During this time my mother died. I had to go through the two trials all alone – I had no one. I was completely alone, no friends and no one in the world that I could talk to. I did not want to live anymore – I even tried to take my own life. Then my father died, I got pregnant and had to make an abortion…and the man of my dreams cheated on me and lied about it for over a year until the truth came out in the most painful way ever… somewhere there, around the age of 24, I decided that enough is enough and I chose to change my thinking. I started working on liking myself. I did it all by myself – I never told ANYONE about any of these things that happened to me in my childhood/teenage years. It was not until I was almost 30 years old I began talking about it.

So, I guess this answers your question on why such a beautiful girl like me, hated myself for almost 30 years and had absolutely no self-esteem 🤣❤

How you FEEL has nothing to do with the way you look. I had my desired, dream body, but I hated myself and had no self-esteem for almost 30 years. Beauty does not mean confidence. You cant see how you feel, it is 100% about your own thinking – and you CAN do something about that. If I could, all by myself, anyone can. 🌹❤

You are my perfect soulmate

Wake up, live life intentionally – like you love yourself!

I will be silenced no more. No more hiding the truth in order to protect my abusers. I left my insecurities a long time ago, I will never go back.

I will be silenced no more. No more protecting my abusers in order to sooth them. No more. I left all guilt and blame a long time ago.

I will be silenced no more. I will never again blame myself when someone tries to hurt me – I left my self-doubt and self-hatred a long time ago.

I will rise from the ashes, more free, more empowered, more confident, more at peace, more loving, more beautiful and stronger than ever before.

I will no longer bleed in silence. I will no longer cry in silence. I embrace all that I am – past, present and future – with love. I am ready. ❤

Never give up my dear ❤

No matter what you have been through or how bad you feel – you can improve your life and feel good again. It all begins with you and your thoughts. This is where you make the change – the circumstances might be far from how you want them to be but it does not matter. It has to be an emotional journey first, then you will view everything in a new light.

All those difficulties can actually inspire you to now become stronger, more confident, more happy, more free and more empowered. There is value in everything but it all begins with you and the thoughts you choose. Your perspective is what makes all the difference. ❤

” The strongest people are not those who show strength in front of us, but those who win battles we know nothing about.”

Abuse comes from inner pain 💖

I believe there is goodness everywhere. I believe everyone has goodness within. Evil deeds and hate come from people who are also hurting within. But the pain when you are hurting within can only be relieved when you do something about your own thinking. But most people are so consumed by this pain and feel so powerless in their perspective that they lash out in anger or become deeply depressed.

Many people turn to substances, food or harmful behaviour in order to numb their own inner pain. But the numbness is only temporary – the way to allow your mind and body to heal is by changing your thinking. That is where lasting change happens.

It is not a quick fix, it takes time and patience. One little step at a time. But it is possible to change. A habit is only a belief you have been practicing – and a belief is only a thought. The little daily thoughts have more impact on you, your habits, your limitations and your opportunities than you can even begin to imagine. When you start with the thoughts, you start at the root of the visible problem. That is where you find the solution. A little shift goes a long way. 💖

The unwanted experiences are of great value ❤

What if all the bumps on your road where there to redirect you? What if all the things you went through that brought you to your knees actually has the potential of inspiring you to become even more confident, even more joyful, even more loving and even more empowered?

Everything that happens to you is of value – especially the unwanted experiences. When you begin to realize the potential that these gifts actually give you, now you will begin to view everything in life in a different light. 💖

A letter to myself as a little girl ❤

“I want you to know that you are so loved! I love you more and more each second and I love you for being exactly as you are! You don’t have to change yourself in order to please your parents or anyone else! Just continue to enjoy the things you love and keep being imaginative, energetic and confident. 

The hurtful words from your parents, your teachers and your classmates are more about the pain THEY are feeling than about you. Brush it all off and continue to find new ways of caring about yourself.

All those scary things that you have seen and been through will only make you stronger and more confident – you can be as successful as you desire to no matter what those around you say.

Please don’t give up on yourself, eventhough it might feel difficult right now – know that I love you unconditionally and eternaly. I am proud of everything that you are. I love everything about you. You are kind, you are loving, you are cute, you are clever and you have within you all the answers to all the questions you might ever encounter.

Keep smiling, keep your heart light and happy. Follow your bliss and know that your life will always get better and better no matter how it might temporarily look.”

Lots of love from myself, Ann-Christin Svärd, many years later.

Can chocolate, video games and sex improve your life?


Anything that you choose to do that you allow yourself to ENJOY fully has the potential of strenghtening how you feel about yourself and how you view your life.
It doesn’t matter what things that call you, the only thing that matters is how these things feel to you. If these are things you love to do, that bring you relief, that makes you happy – then allow yourself to benefit by these things by allowing yourself to ENJOY these things.

The reason why the same things can be someone’s “addiction” in a negative sence is because most people do not change how they think and feel ABOUT THEMSELF at the same time as they allow these things to bring them relief

If you rely on these substances and things to feel good – now you have a negative, disempowering addiction. 

If you let these bring you TEMPORARY relief while at the same time you work on improving how YOU FEEL ABOUT YOURSELF – now you will benefit by what you choose to do and you are on your way toward empowering YOURSELF.

Everything in your life is affected by HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT YOURSELF. This is somethink you can’t fake with makeup, or improve with a new diet, or mask with alcohol or hide with fake smiles and positive words. How you truly feel about yourself will shine through all of that and you and your body will always return to that because how you feel comes from within – and it affects EVERYTHING in your life. And this is the beautiful part because YOU can change how you feel about yourself and when you do, EVERYTHING about you – your body, your health, your confidence, your relationships – EVERYTHING in your life will reflect those changes. It truly is mind over matter. When you change the mind the matter will change automatically.

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