When the uneasy feelings take over

This was supposed to be my last week at work before my summer break, however, since my babies have had chicken pox they are not allowed to come back to the day care center yet… so that means my summer break has officially begun now. I have been looking forward to getting away from the school building for quite some time now, so I should be relieved. But I am not. I am very uncomfortable and uneasy. My thoughts are constantly focused on what happened 9 months ago and especially on what will happen next year when this man who hurt me will be released from prison.

I keep telling myself that he will never dare to hurt me again, but I feel so uneasy about it. Every day that passes is a day closer to his release date. What if he has not given up his thoughts about me, what if he wants revenge? I couldn’t stop him last time, so how will I be able to stop him if he tries to hurt me again? This scares me so much. I just want to run away from this town, move far far away and never ever return. But do I really want to hide all my life? No. I will stay here, I will keep working at my job that I feel so passionate about. I will continue to live in my house and raise my children in this town. He cannot take that away from me. Yes, I am afraid butΒ it will not prevent me from living my life in ways that call me.


When nobody cares about you – start caring about yourself πŸŒΉ

When nobody else celebrates you, learn to celebrate yourself. When nobody else compliments you, learn to compliment yourself. It is not up to other people to keep you encouraged. It is up to you. Encouragement should come from the inside.”

– Jay Shetty

Being alone can actually make you stronger. Some people might argue with that and claim that you are more powerful when you team up with others who motivate and support you. Well, what if that is not avaliable? What if you are truly alone? Then you have no choice other than to begin to care about yourself and encourage yourself. That is where you find your unconditional strenght and your unconditional happiness. That is the very key to improving your life, regarding all aspects. πŸ™

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