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Once a bad guy always a bad guy? No ๐ŸŒน – he has a good heart and a kind soul

Ok this evening something happened that made me think a little. My ex, the one I moved in with when I was 17 who hit me a lot and hurt me physically and mentally for 1 1/2 years before he went to prison for what he did to me, started following me on instagram tonight. It felt weird.

I blocked him on Facebook many years ago after he sent a friend request… and I have not thought that much about him since… until two days ago when we were in Jรถnkรถping. He walked passed us when we were out shopping in Jรถnkรถping. I never even thought he would look me up and follow me on instagram though.

As I told my boyfriend about this he got really upset and said it was not ok and that I should block him immediately. But I didnt at first. Somehow I feel like I am tired of running away from my past. This was a guy I fell in love with when I was 17. A guy I lived with for 1 1/2 years. A guy who I know has a good heart and a kind soul who has been through a lot of horrible things as a child. I don’t blame him at all for how things played out when I was with him… 18 years ago. I was a completely different person back then, I had no self-esteem and I was so incredibly insecure. Of course we were a perfect match back then and our insecurities and trauma brought out the worst in us. But I don’t blame him – the fault is mine just as well.

We had our experiences together and I feel nothing but appreciation for the lessons it taught me. I want peace. I want relief. I want to let go and lovingly move on. I want to say I am sorry for everything, I want to say thank you for the experiences and the lessons and the growth I have been gifted with since this time. Thank you and I wish you nothing but peace, love and happiness in all aspects of your life. ๐ŸŒน

But, after giving it some thought I decided to block him anyway. He might have good intentions and all that but for me it feels like relief to not have him following me at all.

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Evening yoga and enigma ๐ŸŒน

I have had a really good day at work and the evening with my babies was divine. First we spent a few hours playing outside in the garden and on the playground, then we went inside, they had a bath and then we relaxed a little on the sofa.

While they relaxed I did some yoga – absolutely magnificent. So soothing and yet strenghtening at the same time.

Now I am relaxing in bed while listening to my favourite relaxing music, Enigma. Same relaxing music that I have listened to for 25 years now ๐Ÿ˜Š๐ŸŒน.

  • I hope you had a good day aswell.
  • What do you enjoy doing when you want to relax?

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