Without going into too much specifics I can say that I have been through a lot of things in my life. Things that brought me to the point where I hated myself, had no self-esteem and even tried to take my own life. I had a difficult childhood with an alcoholic parent. I have been bullied, been sexually abused multiple times, physically abused, had anorexia, ran away from home when I was 17 and ended up in an abusive relationship. My mother died when I was 18 years old and my father died a few years after that, I went through an abortion and much more…
The only way I found to ease my emotional pain when I was a child was by eating delicious food. It worked wonderful, for a moment. But of course the feeling didn’t last because I used external things to make myself feel better. Back then I had no idea that I could improve my own thinking and by that affect how I was feeling. I felt like a powerless victim to all these bad experiences and my hatred for myself continued to get stronger through the years.
It was not until I was 24 years old that I decided I had to do something to improve how I was feeling – and that was when I found out about the authour Louise Hay and started reading her book “You can heal your life”. That was when my changes began. I began to improve my thinking and the effect of my changes were instant. Everything in my life began improving to reflect that positive mental change I was making. I started reading and listening to the teachings of Abraham Hicks and the law of attraction and continued improving my thinking. Within a few years I had changed my entire beliefsystem.
I went from no self-esteem to total self-empowerment, and I did it all by myself. Everything in my life improved as I improved my thinking. I got my dream job, I met the man of my dreams, I could eat what ever I desired and have the body I desired, I got pregnant and easily gave birth to my two little babies who are now 1 years old and 3 years old. We bought a beautiful big house, a sporty car and I got huge payraises at work… but the most important thing was that I felt good!
This is a wonderful journey of transformation to take and my journey is far from over. It is an endless journey and life will continue to get better and better if you allow it.
So, to answer the question above – will it ever heal? Yes and no. If you work on improving your thinking, then yes. If you don’t do anything to improve your thinking, then no. You have to find your own ways to improve your thinking, and you have to be gentle with yourself every step of the way. Do I always feel good? No. I still return to some old negative thoughts from time to time and when I do it feels breathtakingly awful. Sometimes it lasts only a day, sometimes more. But now I know what to do, and I know it is only temporary. No matter what you have been through in your life, you CAN improve your life and become the person you want to be. It is never too late, you can begin again, right now. I am here with you, we are all in this together. ♡